~swEet seCRetz 2 relle~

忙碌还是盲碌？我还是回到原点。快乐、我能再次拥有你吗?

2010-07-20T20:35:00.002+08:00

My girlfren asked : so when r u getting married...

2010-07-06T21:50:00.000+08:00

为什么一直错过幸福？

2010-06-23T21:40:00.000+08:00

capturing all til i forget

2010-06-22T23:16:00.004+08:00

zoo outing with his colls...
nite safari has always been my fav...

we nvr had a chance to dine...so romantically...

2008...

2010-06-22T22:12:00.005+08:00

the commonality-will live in faded memory...放开了拳头反而更自由

2009-07-31T01:12:00.002+08:00

I guess if any of my buddies see me blogging....you can suspect something is wrong liao.. and you are right!:)

Jay Chou - 失落非主流

2008-10-21T23:47:00.001+08:00

失落非主流 - 周杰伦

2008-10-12T22:24:00.003+08:00

失落非主流 - 周杰伦

你的绘画凌乱着.

在这个时刻.

我想起喷泉旁的白鸽.

甜蜜散乱了.

情绪莫名的拉扯.

我还爱你呐.

伴你断断续续唱着歌.

假装没事了.

时间过了走了.

爱情面临选择.

你冷了却了我哭了.

一开始的不快乐.

你用卡片拭写着.

有些爱只给到这真的痛了.

怎麽了.你累了.说好的.幸福呐

我懂了.不说了.爱淡了.梦淹了

开心与不开心.一一叙说着.你在不舍

那些爱过的感觉都太深刻.我都还记得

你不等了.说好的.幸福呐

我错了.泪干了.放手了后悔了

只是回忆的音乐和还旋转着.

要怎么停呢

你的绘画凌乱着.

在这个时刻.

我想起喷泉旁的白鸽.

甜蜜散乱了.

情绪莫名的拉扯.

我还爱你呐.

伴你断断续续唱着歌.

假装没事了.

时间过了走了.

爱情面临选择.

你冷了却了我哭了.

一开始的不快乐.

你用卡片拭写着.

有些爱只给到这真的痛了.

怎麽了.你累了.说好的.幸福呐

我懂了.不说了.爱淡了.梦淹了

开心与不开心.一一叙说着.你在不舍

那些爱过的感觉都太深刻.

我都还记得

你不等了.说好的.幸福呐

我错了.泪干了.放手了后悔了

只是回忆的音乐和还旋转着.

要怎么停呐

怎麽了.你累了.说好的.幸福呐.

我懂了.不说了.爱淡了.梦淹了.

我都还记得.

你不等了.说好的.幸福呐

我错了.泪干了.放手了后悔了

只是回忆的音乐和还旋转着.

要怎么停呐

essential happiness

2008-08-13T01:06:00.006+08:00

he said he dont like desserts. gosh, i was so excited abt this, yet...

i doubt he will read this, so freely here i go.

im essentially a happie girl. or most of de time, i chose to be a happie girl.

or rather, whether its genuine happiness, i don give a shit.

even if i only "appear" to be happie, so be it.

or at least i haf the ability to send signals to my neurons to make myself "feel" happie.

its jus basic conditioning which in time to come, will essentialise.

ha! crap theory right!?

i realise thr all these years, he is still the root of nostalgia n baggage of unhappiness.

i wonder why when things were jus so swift n seemed insignificant then yet inscribed all these baggages of emotions in me.

no matter hw i try to let it go, it seemed that time did not fade them away.

i feel soo insignificant in his light. for such attention seekers like me, such feelings are so impt.

we can give freely the benefit of doubt for it makes one feels better.

im sure im not the onli one, prolly one of those, not the first though.

its nt worth the sleepless nites, terrible migraine n distractions at work.

like what dear said, choose simple happiness.

im waiting, aimlessly...

today is 5th august...my birthday

2008-08-05T02:18:00.003+08:00

thanks to all the lovely wishes and suprises!

u know, i always say bdays are days when u knw who truely care for u?

i dont need big bday parties, surrounded by constant NON stop sms is gd enuff.

will upload all my pics real SOON!

yohoo!

wonder why i feel sudden sadness dwell.

anyway, its abt choice!! IM A HAPPY GIRL.

i hope he doesnt read my blog, so that i can blog freely...

so excited!

2008-07-15T00:39:00.002+08:00

i like this feeling.
cheap thrill.
super high jus by that few words...haaa

im flying to bangkok soon! more pics to come finallie.....

indulging in passion can reallie destress....

no wonder people fall in love.

woohoo!

Loving you....waiting....

2008-07-08T00:25:00.004+08:00

loving you is easy cuz you're beautiful

making love with you is all i wanna do

loving you is more than just a dream come true

cuz everything that i do

is out of loving you

la la la…do…lu…ho…

no one else can make me feel

the colors that you bring

stay with me while we grow old

and we will live each day in springtime

loving you has made my life so beautiful

everyday of my life

is filled with loving you

loving you i see your soul come shining thru

everytime that we

ooh i'm more in love with you

*credits to my fav photographer cy..huggies!

Split personality.....

2008-05-28T23:50:00.003+08:00

It is so scary how age is catching up, below the very first picture taken for my first job, June 2003 five years back.

为汶川大地震林俊杰

2008-05-24T09:10:00.004+08:00

Neglected my blog...often. Long delayed pics, but nvr too late I guess.
Malacca Trip in March as below, totally gave me away and found me guilty of being biased.

Baby likes to take pics of me, caught unaware..esp when Im doing my make up....hmm wad a fettish.

Yes, no doubt, my little princess is in her bathing robe ready to go swimming!sexy sia!

ah yi, look at my eyes....

Happiness..simply

Only way to excite the girls after such a long ride, moving objects.

The white pony has such expressive eyes..

Dont ask me, i dunno if its a gun "sign" or peace...haha

I rem I fell from one of this moving rides when i was five! Trying to gain speed to win my cousin....duh competitive...

Only shot of myself in Malacca.

Huini's birthday and the reunion of the friends. Jasmine, me, Huini and Jiesi.

Long awaited pics of the booze we had in Jas's meritus rm. In celebration of the babe's birthday, booze fr 7-E!......

3 of us with a happie Jas..

Jas n me, I like to look skinny...=P

Mayday reunion with new members...ha, so fun at settlers.

Wad a couple shot, check out our shirts!

Long awaited shots of sentosa 07, all thanks to CY! luckie we are still frens ...haa

Cy would have looked alot macho if i cropped away his tummie! muhaaaaa

Wad an unwilling shot from both parties!How can I not upload this=p

Give credit to the photographer, like the way how my fingers looked long.

Thanks for editing away my ugly rashes on the face, cant tell hor.....=p

Another credit to CY for making me look skinny, at least this is wad I think lah, no need comments...haaa

Final muse of the day.

Cant help but filled with admiration for JJ for touching our hearts and making us proud as Singaporean, the talented and compassionate....

为汶川大地震-林俊杰

大地被摇晃著天空突然黑了
我的心也被震碎了下一秒瓦解了
泪堆积成了河
但明天是好的我们要坚定著
爱让我们不放弃活著还要继续和大自然拔河

当爱与希望投射炙热的太阳
昨日泪光会随时间都蒸发
别轻易放弃明天要许更多愿望
装满了勇气就更有力量

当爱与希望倒映暖暖的月亮
再回头望又是筑好的家乡
我知道未来还有好多路要闯
我打开了窗看见了晴朗

虽然我愿意-伍家辉

2008-05-09T16:21:00.001+08:00

请让我靠近你轻轻对你说

别让我每个夜为你受折磨

是多么不容易才默默放手

为了我就当作这次为了我

别让我因为你被回忆折磨

而空气凝结了我们的脸孔

我别无选择

就算我们之间有什么问题

依然想念着你

虽然被放弃

虽然我愿意

就算我们之间有什么难题

黑夜我还想着你

心碎人孤寂

虽然我愿意

(心还想着你)

再让我靠近你轻轻对你说

当我说我要你从此好好过

是真的否则我怎么肯放手

为了我就当作这次为了我

赐给我你现在幸福的笑容

别让恨冻结了我们的脸孔

请你做选择请

lost internet connection, seems like i lost half my world...digust at such realisation..

2008-04-15T00:24:00.001+08:00

Queen of night

2008-03-24T22:59:00.005+08:00

Fly me to the moon

Let me play among the stars

Let me see what spring is like On a-Jupiter and Mars

In other words, hold my hand

In other words, darling, kiss me

Fill my heart with song And let me sing for ever more

You are all I long for All I worship and adore

In other words, please be true

In other words, I love you

In other words, hold my hand

In other words, darling, kiss me

Fill my heart with song and Let me sing for ever more

You are all I long for All I worship and adore

In other words, please be true

In other words, I love ... you

wad an emotional torture!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2008-03-16T23:49:00.002+08:00

its killing me..i wished he gets to read this and understand the torment im drowning in...

我决定放开了，回到我的避风港。。。:)

2008-03-09T00:51:00.000+08:00

若你是我，你会怎么做？

2008-03-07T00:32:00.002+08:00

心情很差。
没人能理解。好难受。
我想哭但哭不出来。

我真的很舍不得你走。
好不容易才把距离拉近。

十年了。我仍活在十年前的记忆。

我哭了，终于！
好开心！忍了好久的伤感。
好复杂的心情。

我搞不懂为何会落泪。可是一旦获知他得离去，我心情好乱！
我真的舍不得你走。

我甚至问你：带我一起走好吗？
当然，你不把我当一回事，一定觉得我很荒谬吧！

我真得为我自己的眼泪感到尴尬！
不合理的伤心，一定会被好友臭骂！

我不是故意要背叛他，也没有意思想这么做。

可能你走得对。
我会继续想着你，梦到你，盼望在外国的你过得比今天更开心。

我真的舍不得你走。

可能哭过我就会没事。你走了我就会没事。

我是不是该赴他的约会呢？
见了面会不会更伤心，更舍不得？

若你是我，你会怎么做？

My precious little ones + long delayed colls' piz

2008-02-10T13:13:00.000+08:00

Finally, a gd shot. It is REALLY difficult to take pics with little ones ya and this shot was taken with my hippotamus on the floor :s
Me n darling qi qi! I will abuse this pic n tell pple she is my DAUGHTER! wonder what will happen if my baby (if I ever have one) does not look as cute as she is...hmmm

Me , pretty little NingXi and Jun jun at Ah Si house

Sharlotte's solo of Happy birthday........=)

Another video recorded to prevent"2nd world war", haiz kids....

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Looooong delayed pic of ex HGST colls at Jean's wedding. Well, somehow the reunions happen always at weddings, no matter how much we dread them. I miss HGST's unpolitical ambience mixed with those little gossips talk and happy girl lunches, haiz...

Below is a pic of my ex workplace, Dhoby Ghaut.

Me n buddie Sylvia. Now, I FULLY understand how I am always WRONG to think that the grass is greener.

Well, in fact , grass is always greener as I looked back at previous working environment. The further I go, the more difficult I find it hard to breathe. The air just keep filling itself with their unscrupulous intents, perpetually oblivious to the good of mankind. Why cant people just be more straight forward and BELIEVE that THERE ARE indeed PURE goodness in people who geuninely help because we CARE? I hate to be filled with disgust even with my closest people when competition begins. I mean cant I innocently believe that the Lord will bless us truely in our work and it is not for us TO COMPETE like some dogs in a race? I wonder how I can survive without the Lord's help. I insist to pray and bless people around me.

I believe.

Me and new Colls at Chelsea's wedding

Haiz...=( can u feel it? Monday blues....

Planning CNY 2009

2008-02-08T23:59:00.000+08:00

haiz, poor me. yes, I baked muffins on Chu Er!better start making plans for CNY 2009, feeling upset at how little are the things we can do in every chinese new year...

Well, now I can fully comprehend why aunties dotes on nieces soooo muchie! Well it only takes another aunite to understand what I mean, oh shit, branding myself "AUNTIE" gosh....

my life's plateau

2008-02-04T23:46:00.000+08:00

caught in the act...red-handed...wanted to secretly snap a shot of "evidence" but was caught by honey! ha

reviving my youth!

i cant belief i duno hw to use such machines anymore! God!
i cant belief he is so near yet so far..

A Christmas Letter to you...

2007-12-20T14:37:00.001+08:00

Hello dear friend!

Well, as you know, it's time for my birthday again. Last year, they had a real big party for me and it seems like they will again this year. After all, they've been shopping and preparing for it for months now, and there have been announcements and advertisements almost everyday about how soon it's coming! They really do go overboard about it, but it's nice to know that at least on one day of the year some people are thinking about me a little.
You know, it's been many years now since they first started celebrating my birthday. Back then they seemed to realize and appreciate how much fun it is for the little children. Just the same, it seems that most folks are missing the point of it all. Like last year, for example: When my birthday came around, they threw a big party, but can you believe it?... I wasn't invited! Imagine! The guest of honor, and they forgot all about me! Here they had begun preparing for the festivities two months in advance, but when the big day came, I was left out in the cold!
Well, it happened so many times in recent years, I wasn't even surprised. Even though I wasn't invited, I thought I'd just quietly slip in anyway. So I came in and stood off to the side. Everyone was drinking, laughing and having a grand time, when all of the sudden, in came this fat fellow in a bright red suit, wearing a phony white beard and shouting, "Ho Ho Ho!"
He looked like he had more than enough to drink, but he somehow managed to weave his way running the floor while everyone cheered. When he collapsed into a big armchair, all the children went running over to him excitedly yelling, "Santa!! Santa!!"
I mean, you'd have thought he was the guest of honor and the whole holiday was in his honor! Then he began telling them the most ridiculous stories you've ever heard ... that he lived at the North Pole with a crew of dwarfs and that every year on my birthday he rides in his sleigh pulled by a bunch of flying reindeers, delivering presents to children all over the world!! I mean there wasn't a word of truth in anything he said! Imagine telling such poor, little, impressionable kids such far-fetched fables! Finally I just had to leave, I walked out of the door, and it was hardly surprising that no one even noticed that I had gone.
As I walked on the street afterward, I felt about as lonely and forlorn as stray dogs! I could hardly remember the last time I'd felt that low. Maybe you do not think I cry...........
Another thing that amazes me is how, on my birthday, instead of giving me presents, most people give presents to each other!
And to top it all off, it's usually all kinds of stuff they don't even need! Let me ask you, wouldn't you find it odd if when your birthday came along, all your friends decided to celebrate it by giving each other presents and never gave you a thing? Someone once told me, well, it's because you're not around like other people are, so how can we give you a present?
You know my answer to that one: Then give gifts of food and clothing to the poor, help those who need it. Go visit the lonely! I said, Listen, any gift you give to your needy fellowmen, I'll count as if you gave it to me personally! (See Matthew 25:34-40)
Well sad to say, things are getting worse each year. You can just imagine my shock a few years ago when I began seeing them taking my name out of my birthday greeting and replacing it with an X. What an insult!! Think of it!...X-mas!! What if I wrote you a birthday card and said Happy Birthday X! You'd probably never talk to me again!
And that's just about how I feel, I mean what more could they do to push me right out of the picture on my own birthday? It reminds me of what happened recently to a friend of mine, a sweet elderly fellow. He's from the poorer side of town and he's been trying unsuccessfully for years to join the church. But it was a very exclusive church for the proper kind of folks, and they just did not think he was good enough to be a member.
I found him one day sitting by the church steps with his head on his hands bowed and I asked him what was wrong, he told me about it, I put my arm around his shoulder and told him I knew how he felt. I've been wanting to enter that same church for twenty years and they've never let me in either! Well, there's an end even to my patience. So I'm going to let you in on a secret.........
Now this is something I've been planning on doing for quite sometime, but the way things are going, I think I'm planning of holding my own party! How about that? It's going to be the biggest most fantastic feast you could possibly imagine! It might not happen this year, but I'm sending out invitations now anyway because I know you'll want to come.
There's going to be room for billions, for everyone who wants to come! Some really famous old timers and celebrities are going to be there and I'll reserve you a seat of honor right with them! (Matthew 8:11) So hold on to your hat because when everything is ready, I'm going to spring it as a big surprise and a lot of people are going to be left out in the cold, because they didn't answer my invitation!! Let me know right away if you'd like to come, and I'll reserve you a place and, write your name in large golden letters in my BIG GUEST BOOK!!

Much Love, JESUS
Ninure Saunders aka Rainbow Christian

babyz day @ rasa

2007-12-11T00:00:00.000+08:00

好想对他说的话...

2007-11-25T20:36:00.000+08:00

不知为何，常在潜意识梦见他。好想对他说的话，就是如这首歌那么简单。真的好想知道他过得好吗？而也希望能听到真实的答案。也不知为何，是第六感吗？还是潜意识？我一直有一种奇怪的直觉，他好像很不快乐。我是该坦白的问候他吗？看到网上关于他的资料，为甚麽感觉那么闷闷不乐？
想想分开有9年的时间。。。好恐怖啊！！！哈哈，不能不认老啦，残了啦。
虽然事别9年，记忆犹新。我们的分开并不是很不快乐，可能是在一起的时间短暂，没有过真正轰轰烈烈的爱，就是那很纯朴被彼此吸引。也可能因此对他的记忆比其他前男友好多。
这莫名其妙的直觉是最近才产生的，前几年就只有偶尔梦到他，也不为希奇。这种经验，大家都有吧。有时候还会幻想有重逢的机会，哈。
怎么办啊？看着办吧.

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歌曲：你好吗
歌手：李玖哲/周笔畅专辑：想太多

温柔的时间抚平我们的亏欠
过几天过几年伤会好一点

多久没见面孩子气有没有变
还记得我们从前笑的那么甜

baby 我想起你你有了他
是否依然为了爱变的很傻
我想起你你有一个他
好久都没说的话你好吗

温柔的缠绵我也放下了依恋
过几天过几年伤会好一点

我收着照片安静在盒子里面
回忆是你我剩下唯一的关联

baby 我想起你你有了他
是否依然为了爱变的很傻
我想起你你有一个他
好久都没说的话你好吗

问候是我对你好想说出的话
现在你过的好吗

我想起你你有了他
是否依然为了爱变的很傻
我想起你你有一个他
好久都没说的话你好吗

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我们的约定,你记得吗...

2007-11-08T02:28:00.000+08:00

蒲公英的约定

作词:方文山作曲:周杰伦

小学篱芭旁的蒲公英

是记忆里有味道的风景

午睡操场传来蝉的声音

多少年后也还是很好听

将愿望折纸飞机寄成信

因为我们等不到那流星

认真投决定命运的硬币

却不知道到底能去哪里

一起长大的约定

那样清晰打过勾的我相信

说好要一起旅行

是的如今唯一坚持的任性

在走廊上罚站打手心

我们却注意窗边的蜻蜓

我去到哪里你都跟很紧

很多的梦在等待着进行

一起长大的约定

那样真心

与你聊不完的曾经

而我已经分不清

你是友情还是错过的爱情

i lost my precious wallet! curse the person who took it! :(

2007-10-28T23:24:00.000+08:00

the day(s) we quarrelled

2007-10-13T23:31:00.000+08:00

DAY: SATURDAY

WEATHER:SIGNS OF UTI

UTI aka urinal tract infection. look im nt tryin to b gross. but cmon! it is such an appropriate description of thew weather these days in Singapore, dont ya agree? I mean, it was rainy at 10plus, gt slightly sunny in the noon, drizzled abit at 3 and its fine again. look! aint it symptons of UTI!haaaa, nvm, i guess its jus simply irritating how the weather sometimes reallie gets on ur nerves while it forces u to decide on whether or nt to carry a brolly.

anyway, i can list dwn the no of ABSURD things he does when we quarrel:

1)smashed his laptop monitor (ACCIDENT HAPPENED TODAY)

2)smashed his window with his fist, leavin droplets of blood inside n outside the house, sounds like a murder scene sia?

3) use his leg to smash the photoframe i gave him. outcome: broke his heel bone n was on mc for 2 mths. during the 2 mths of "rest", he went online to get to knw some ger(s) thr wholivesnearu and got caught by me.ha. ( intended sacarsm)

4)smashed my room's door, when my parents are overseas. when they were backed n asked me, i had to feign ignorance. he said he will repair it, IT NEVER HAPPENED. ( year to date since it last happened: 2years ++)

5)smashed a mac flurry ice-cream in his car. i was dirtied all over. but i was cool =), i walked out of his car ,calmly and hailed for a cab.

6)smashed porridge all over his living room, he had to ended up cleaning the place in the end. tink he hurt his hand with the chopsticks.

7)broke Crystal Jade's chopstick into 2. i wonder why the manager did nt asked 4 compensation.ha, perhaps he did not wan more chopsticks broken!

8) i tink there were more, but cant reallie rem....

yes i admit, i haf an extreme bad temper. or perhaps i jus simply refuse to face the reality that we shd haf long ago left each other and nt be burdened by emotional reliance on each other. perhaps the commonality btw us is that both of us has this little self righteousness that consumed ourselves with so much irrational emotion that binds us together,too tightly n wrongly.

i was waitin 4 him 2be online,quite silly hor. but its jus the relentless flirtatous that we throw to each other that makes it so exciting n fun.i wonder when will i get to c him again,haiz. hopefullie when my ugly face recovers man. i cant believed i missed the call n nvr gt bac in the end. i guess nw that our distance is so stretched, i wonder when i will see him again. he said he was near my ex branch when he called me, damn! =( i hope he is doin well and i tink he is, guess he can understand my "torture" more. but he said i cld do it!!! =) somehow, its the same words everyone says to me, but it jus FEELS different when he says so .ha.

mina-san, confused? nvm la, ignore me, this is truly my avenue to my freedom.

i am fine! jus wanna pen it down, feels terrific.

pls come online soon! > <

shit, missed my guess show,ciao!

so blur sia, only few pics of recent , my gers send me some of my pics ya! =p

drained.....

2007-10-13T00:46:00.000+08:00

DAY: FRIDAY
WEATHER:SUNNY BUT RAINED IN NOON

I feel so drained.
mentally n physically, when I tot life has just turned better, i was wrong.
in seekin fr refuge away fr those threathening hands of politics, i end up walkin straight into their trap.
MORE POLITICS. MORE SUCKING UP.MORE SPECULATION.

haiz. i jus wanted to do my due dilligence.
but I truly beleve the Lord did not put me in a place to torture me. if He put me here, He would bless me!
I will survive.

STATE of mind: FRIED

side track:

this is a pic of my doggie ,bitin the ball of her life to sleep.....sweet.

im havin some heart 2 heart tok with him... wad a farnie feeling...=)

2007-10-12T01:11:00.001+08:00

my reply to ur sms

2007-10-03T22:59:00.000+08:00

She msg me today : Hey ger, heard u got promoted to **, congratulations!
my reply:
i dunno wad to reply.
am i suppose to be like a 2 headed snake like u n pretend to be best of frens with u, while i confide in u, u promise to me nvr to say, u did the exact opposite.
this is nt pri sch secret, it affects my career, my reputations.
yes, i chose to forgive u, but i did not chose to be FAKE.
i haf a right to be myself, the real me, the original me, the person that exposed barenakedly to u.
i chose to still be me.
ha.
*********************
today i dressed excitedly, but nuthing happen, no sms, no meeting, no lunch.
dude, probably the last time to meet.
too bad. haiz =(
i was excited.
this is me, overwhelmed by expectations ,drunk with disappointed.

人性本善。。。。。。。我呸！

2007-10-03T00:16:00.000+08:00

原来我还是个天真幼稚的小学生。
为甚么要每一回都考验我的心。
为甚么要我承受背叛的滋味？
人性本善。。。。我选择原谅你对我的背叛。
我会活的更快乐。

无题。。。

2007-10-02T00:14:00.000+08:00

歌曲名:蔷蔷 by Ella

还记得你喜欢咬着我的手

然后给我你嘴里的球要我陪你玩丢丢

你喜欢我摸摸你的小耳朵

窝在我的身旁没有烦忧在梦里遨游

好狗狗好狗狗

谢谢你陪妈咪这么久

你并没有离开我是搬到天堂生活

蔷蔷你要记得我你不要走丢

快快找到天使在天堂给我保佑

蔷蔷不要忘了我

还有亲爱的阿姨叔叔和你的朋友

你永远活在记忆中

还记得你喜欢咬着我的手

然后给我你嘴里的球要我陪你玩丢丢

你喜欢我摸摸你的小耳朵

窝在我的身旁没有烦忧在梦里遨游

好狗狗好狗狗

谢谢你陪妈咪这么久

你并没有离开我是搬到天堂生活

蔷蔷你要记得我你不要走丢

快快找到天使在天堂给我们保佑

蔷蔷不要忘了我

还有亲爱的阿姨叔叔和你的朋友

你永远活在记忆中

（OS：蔷蔷谢谢你）

蔷蔷你要记得我你不要走丢

快快找到天使在天堂给我保佑

蔷蔷不要忘了我

还有亲爱的阿姨叔叔和你的朋友

你永远活在记忆中

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狗狗，我好怕失去你喔。
还好，现在的你肥如胖猪，我还是觉得我有义务要帮你主持公道！
天理何在！不能让那些虐待狗狗的禽兽逍遥法外！！！
受了高等教育，身为会计师，老公是法庭顾问，连养一只小狗多要我来教。
我呸！恶心！

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真是搞不懂人性，有好多时候让我几乎对人失去信心。

最近，有好多好多让人心烦的事，包括周围好朋友的烦恼，不知何时就背负起别人的重担。

有好多朋友笑我好傻，但你能忍心看好朋友摧毁生命吗？

有好多次都想老老实实的对你说出真心话，但总是没勇气。

害怕伤害到你，你的自尊心，我们的友谊会因此断线吗？

你能打开心怀，安静,冷静地听我们说吗？

我最讨厌别人在我面前说你的是非，我却束手无策。

我好难过！我好难受！

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是不是开始怀疑我精神失调啊？没啦，women 嘛，就是这样子的咯。

想不想看一下最近丑丑肥肥的我啊？

请看以下....

两个siao char bo..... 和我送的花！好久没买花了，感觉真好。。

talkin to my ex crush..........inexplicable feelin...

2007-10-01T00:03:00.000+08:00

an inconvenient truth

2007-08-30T21:45:00.000+08:00

Well, i can't believe i actuallie learnt more about this at work..gosh...
i mean they were trying to "educate" us more so that bank slaves like us will push more for their funds. apparently, this free movie shown to us did not work to their advantage. well or at least, it kept me going" can you don use so many plastic bags!!"

ha, i tell you guys, its reallie kinda fun, being environmentally friendly.
well, it does not hurt to be more sacarstic than i am.
nowadays, EVERY time, i mean EVERY TIME, i make a purchase and this cashier try to "bag" me with guilt, i will say loudly so that the people q-ing behind me could hear:

"Auntie ar, I dont need plastic bag, I WANTO SAVE THE EARTH!!!!"

ha, it work a few times as friends /colls ard me will be confronted with enormous guilt and happily allow me to claim victory on my "campaign".
so one less person using plastic bag. shiok. 爽!
anyway below some trailers for everyone, hope it spikes out our desire to be more mindful of this world.

ha, did the earth betray us?
no.
we betrayed the earth.

An Inconvenient Truth

haa, this is quite farnie...

A Terrifying Message from Al Gore

傻瓜

2007-08-23T23:47:00.000+08:00

I am so missing my long hair already.....
darling ah si once told me, after you had ur cheap thrill n hoo haa from cutting off ur hair.
soon.
its nt so fun after all....
DAMN.
i hate it cuz she is so right.
how? how to prevent anti aging and wish my hair becomes long again tomorrow?
how abt hair extensions plus botox? ha, all in one hor, ya. i knw im cool.
bimbotically cool. so? hmpf. bleh. =p
finallie came across this pic on baby's pc, hit it right in my face.
and ya ya, its the wallpaper of my phone, simply so obviously show whom i missed most!ha.
woman are such figures of irony yeah.

heard on radio this really nice song, quite well written, simple yet nice.

wanna share with everyone. and as usual, lyrics as below , can sing along heh.

温岚,傻瓜

词曲/吴克群编曲：鸦片丹

其实他做的坏事我们都懂

没有什么不同眼光闪烁

暧昧流动闭上眼当作听说

其实别人的招数我们都懂

没有什么不同故作软弱

撒娇害羞只是有一点别扭

傻瓜也许单纯地懂

爱得没那么做作

爱上了我不保留

傻瓜我们都一样

被爱情伤了又伤

相信这个他不一样

却又再一次受伤

傻瓜我们都一样

受了伤却不投降

相信付出会有代价

代价只是一句傻瓜

anyway, came across this movie, FAST FOOD NATION.
always wanted to watch it but nvr reallie gt a chance
ignorant me used to tink it muz be some sarcastic comedy.
but well, YUCKS!
i am so nt gg to take fast food!
below is a sneak preview.
if required will get some better d/l.
haiz, i hate to see the poor moo moos....
by the way , if u plan to eat fast food, better nt watch it.
an inconvenient truth, indeed.

a picture paints a thousand words..great

2007-08-11T03:49:00.000+08:00

well its kinda 4.08am.

i wonder if insomnia is an activity, a pasttime or maybe an excuse.

excuse to find solace in the escaping seconds of time.

what a deliberate attempt to justify myself .

eyes are burning, I thank God that a picture paints a thousand words...

i always wanted you, you are mine now>< sweetening moments @ top of mwhat a great day, thanks baby
onli pic taken at p s cafe, beautiful jas n me
darling
with new hair cut

p.s thanks gers for makin 050807 a great one

what shd i do

2007-08-02T20:40:00.000+08:00

haiz, state of confusion.
comfort zone.
desire of the unknown, attracting you.also,
if i stay in the comfort zone, i haf to work very very hard n pray 4 a miracle.
only God can help me.

if i choose the greener pasture, looks exciting and glamorous.
but im so unsure if i can make it.
can i reallie make it? i may do well in my comfort zone, but wad if i fail elsewhere?
maybe im only good at where i am now?
y is it that others can do it? while i dwell in such denial?
if i choose this new path, will i bear the sin of guilt n the betrayer?
the hypocrite? will anyone rememeber how i was denied?

mmm......

if u were me?
would u stay in comfort zone or leave bravely for the unknown?

God , pls give me a clear sign.

romance @ de sea

2007-04-30T11:33:00.000+08:00

summary......

hello mina-san! I am officially on leave till 9th May! BORED. i am such a die hard workaholic, cant wait to go back to work. siao si boh! ha. anyway as you all can see it romance at de sea! its been a long time since I took de cruise. You know last time when u were younger ,prolly went with parents n cant rem a single thing except that they dump u at arcade for their casinos....ha.

anyway ah ri is so moutain turtle, I decided to bring him on the cruise ....on ME okie!

its reallie nuthing but eat n sleep eat n sleep, we had a balcony class room that is so comfy that everytime we are bac in the room we cant bear to leave the bed!

plusplus we had this small pathetic balcony but i guess its reallie good enuff, enuff to spend some quiet time n look at how great is thy creation! beautiful sea n stars!

the food is reallie good as i din even expect us to enjoy fine dining without COST! amazing sia..lemme po some pics for u to knw wad i mean....

No photo editing at all!

First ever shot taken on the cruise, presenting de comfy room!

chinese dim sum breakfast for the morning!
sleepie yet greedy! ha!

being forced to pose but still nice!

dis restaurant is reallie cool, had such great food n service man. fine dining for western cusine.checkout the nice red carpet n chairs n the gd thing is cuz its always 2 of us, we always get to sit by the windoW n the sea! LOMANTIC! HA!
nice hors! i nvr knew my legs were so white! like dead fish leh =p

cant u imagine i took this shot fr the bridge! erm like abt 5-7 metres away from the sea! din knw my camera is that good! ha!

can u imagine i was snorkellin thr all these fishie fishies!!! they are so domesticated u knw haiz. i tot fishes will be scared of humans, well it mus be the temptation of the bread that some snorkellers brought along. haiz thats nt nature man. last but nt least, i always like ah ri's tattoo, i tink he grew to look like the tattoo! creepy sia, ha!

没有你的日子，还不是这样的过.......

2007-04-10T23:23:00.000+08:00

Who says chio bu cannot have nice 背影！?ha ha ha!

is this wad we known as the CAM-WHORE!!!!muhaaaahaaa.....

can you notice the scary"soul" behind me n chaw yee!?? haaaaa guess who!? =p

wad's with the farnie angle and makin us look so "hooligan"????haa!

好想念这种感觉

2007-04-03T23:45:00.000+08:00

歌曲：非你莫属
歌手：tank

<白>:你知道吗?
☆我很喜欢牵着你的手的感觉
☆发生什么样子我好希望再来一次☆

懂得让我微笑的人
再没有谁比你有天份
轻易闯进我的心门
明天的美梦你完成
整个宇宙浩瀚无边的尽头
每颗渺小星球全都绕着你走
爱我非你莫属
我只愿守护由你给我的幸福
爱我非你莫属
也许会笑着哭但那人是你所以不怕苦
☆o0o0o0o0o0o☆
懂得让我流泪的人给的感动
一定是最深在我心中留下伤痕
你同时点亮了星辰
看那麽多相遇偏偏只和你
天造地设般产生奇迹
哦我心的缝隙
我想除了你
任谁也无法填补这空虚

☆o0o0o0o0o0o☆☆o0o0o0o0o0o☆☆o0o0o0o0o0o☆☆o0o0o0o0o0o☆☆o0o0o0o0o0o☆

有没有一起唱着？哈哈哈哈。。。。。
嗨。。。。好想念这种感觉。
最近发现到自己逃避的一些事实，有时候，真得觉得好惨酷。
我只不过想沉浸在自己优美的幻想之中，真有那么难吗。
我不要醒，我就喜欢暧昧。对啊，这样就可以光明正大地逃避。
真想回到过去，那时候的我，一定会，肯定会，为爱而不顾一切，勇敢去爱，去争取。
你是不是也很苦恼。
我好无奈，不能帮到甚么。
但你一定要知道我一定会耐心地听你诉苦。

谢谢你喔！我真的好喜欢它！

是不是很美！

withdrawal symptoms..............

2007-03-20T00:16:00.000+08:00

趁现在还年轻，不如勇敢地去尝试。

不要到了最后，才发现最大的错误竟是逃避。

。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。

爱情最浪漫的时候就是你我之间暧昧的那段时间。

超级明星脸

2007-03-18T23:45:00.000+08:00

你们看！是不是很神奇？？我在无意中发现我的一个帅哥朋友竟然长得像我的新欢偶像吴尊！！！ *晕到*
hmmm, well, 是啦，我承认不是超级无敌像啦。但是，就是有那无法解释的熟悉感。一种莫名的相似。
真得难以解释，你们仔细看好不好。不要敷衍我啦！专心点！
有没有？有啦。就是那种神情嘛。

Mr Mak, don angree huh, its a compliment man! =p

I wanto my blog color to be PINK!

2007-03-18T23:34:00.001+08:00

this is sooooooooooooooooooooooo bad!
im reallie angree! third post of the day!
wads up man, just cant save.
nvm, im determined to post no matter wad!
box u.humph!
somethings up with blogspot, just cant post today.

nvtheless, lemme repeat for the third time.

one at a time yeah.

Firstly, my blog color is red! =p
I was saying I happen to chance upon this blog with this post to see what color ur blog should be. Also, kindly put away wadeva doubts u have with regards to how they came abt with the results. I mean the accuracy. I wonder too , jus a feel questions can define the color of ur blog?
well i don care, reallie. sometimes things are jus simple.
as long as they fufill their task, in this case is to satisfy ur desire to know "wad color is ur blog?"
and ta da..... it has completed its task. and as long as they say wad u like to hear, aint that gd enuff? so who cares abt its authenticity, reallie.
anyhow, i wish there were a PINK color tho,ha.

p.s sorrie cant put up the link dunno wad wrong , i will fix it up soon! give IT IDOIT sometime!
aneone who knws , pls help me!

Your Blog Should Be Red

Your blog is full of intensity and passion.
You are very opinionated - and people love or hate you for it.
You have the potential to be both a famous and infamous blogger.

What Color Should Your Blog or Journal Be?

relliez back! again! when is ur last puppie love?

2007-03-15T22:51:00.000+08:00

Dear all dear all! I am back! yes back! bac after a long long blog "holiday!"

ha, life's been busy since hanamaki is in my life!

but i am sure everyone will agree we love ELLA! she is so darn cute!!

if i were a guy, i will like her too! thus i am reallie for the idea that Wu Zun n Ella are together!! haa. also selfless me has passed on the "poision" to my darlin ah si!!!

haaaaaaa! look at them tog man!wish i had the courage like ella to do things like that.... humm

u see thats the thing about movies n drama. so reflective of the humans' want.

the most absurd things that could happen, happen in the drama.

the things that we've always wanted to do, are accomplished by our fine actors n actresses.

they have fufilled our wishes and fantasies to complete what we all don dare to do, yet dream abt doin it, fantasize abt it comin true. ha.

so escapists like us, totallie love such shows. agree? heh.

im sure u do, jus that u paiseh wanna shuddup =p

well darlin ah si is right! i have watched the show many times, totallie sufferin fr withdrawal symptons now . somebodie help! i even wanted to go taiwan in June to be like "ella"!

i wanto "告白" too! ha. okie im not mad okie, chill la.....
Well, these few days the Lord has been reallie kind to me, showed me lotsa His Grace n Love.

And guess wad in one of my church camp, the Encounter Weekend, my colleague accepted Christ!! Amen, praise the Lord! yeah yeah!

I hope that the Lord will continue to bless each and everyone of you my friends!
esp my darlin buddies, jun jun n ah si! they mus be Angels sent by God.
I mus say sorry for yesterday's Ai Qin Hai's outing.
I showed such bad attitude cuz I was reallie reallie tired n stressed. so consumed by my emotions and work!
Sorrie babes!
But I am so glad I met up with u gers! so happie chaw yee was around too!
Haiz, last but not least, folks who knw me will knw the crazy phase Im in right now.

Well if you were me ,if you have been standing on this stagnant plateau for a long time, if the unknown is so attractive n exciting, wad wld you reallie do?

Ya right, stay put n enjoy ur comfort zone?
u sure this is wad u r tinkin?
or is it jus me, insatiable ?

how now brown cow?........

me lookin so sick n tired cuz of bad migraine! but the food was reallie good! tampinese indonesian restaurant!

谈恋爱的感觉。。。。。

2007-02-27T23:04:00.000+08:00

可爱的大家!请尽情享受！Enjoy!
不要想我一样，一遍看美男子，一遍留口水！哈哈！！！！

以下欣赏的是花樣少年少女的片尾曲，專屬天使！！！

对了！大家，我另有心欢了啊！
看着这可爱的美男子，尽然有恋爱的感觉！哦 my God! 把我杀了吧。。。

不要笑我okie....我才不相信哪个看了花样的人不会中毒！hmpf!
虽然有点超龄的感觉，但谁说谈恋爱有限制年龄啊！？

Okie I must confess I will be neglecting my blog the next few weeks!
I will be back yeah!?

Folks who ever who has the Vol 3 of 花样 please lemme know!
I will be eternall grateful to you!!!!
muhahahahahahahh!

冬冬枪！冬冬枪！冬冬枪冬枪冬冬枪！！

2007-02-19T23:47:00.000+08:00

Hmmm...HAPPIE NEW YEAR EVERYBODY!!

猪大家身体健康，万事如意，天天美丽，减肥成功，每星期中TOTO!! YEAH!

Hmm I reallie don like new year leh...esp now that I am totally aging.

The questions get recycled every year.
They should really put it in their hard disk not to ask the same qns man..hmm.

Okie la, the happie thing is that I get to spend more time with my family and my darling "scallop" aka"salad".This year, my darling daddy went "dry swimming" on chu yi night.
So me, wanting to show how muchie I love my mama, decided to bring her to chinatown. and expectedly she got so excited like a little ger! ha, such an irony that I am bringing my mama out now, don wan her to feel lonely@ home .

Okie , expected, LOTSA LOTSA LOTSA PPLE!
So after one street, my mamA was defeated! she surrendered her white flag and wanto U-turn for Lor Ah Soo! Thus I took my evidence as below n left. Of cuz, Mama did not go home empty handed because her "sponsorship" was with her!

It is amazing how pple had so little things to do in their lives in Singapore.
I mean this example below reallie depicts the "Monkey see monkey do culture" in Singapore.

While everyone was crowding around the street, me n mama were so curious and was thinking that there will be some big mega events like "gold " falling or"lucky numbers" falling happening.

But no.

Nope, looking around, nothing of such. But everyone was crowding eagerly, waiting for something to happen.

Hence reallie cutesy mama went forward bravely and tab on an uncle's shoulder and asked in chinese" 嘿！你们在等甚么啊?"

China uncle looked like he has been standing around for quite some time innocently replied
“ erm,我不知道嘞。。。。？？“

wa laos!!!! seriously! Me and mama were abt to burst into a big bitchy discussion n hurriedly escaped from the crime scene!
Boring!!!

Anyway this new year is reallie busy for me and luck is reallie not on my side. So prsssss, no mahjiong or ban luck for me okie? I either break even or win 10 cents, so spare me ya.

PATHETIC!

anyway,Wanto see chio bu?

Okie I admit, this auntie is reallie biased. but I cant help it!she is so freakin sweet okie! but she don reallie like me ...haiz.....depends on her mood!Im such a big fan of hers man.This is my latest desktop wallpaper! somebody teach me how to change my blog wallpaper!!!!!Sometimes I wonder, if i ever ever haf a baby and junior relle don turn out to be as pretty or cute den HOWWWWWWW!!Look Snooch, I reallie don tink flushing it in toilet bowl can help!!!! haaa ( Snooch don box me for blogging this!)
Okie as a form of compensation, lemme post sexy snooch's pic up!

The gang has been subconsciously having this "reunion"activity every Chu Yi.
Thus, religously we met.But everywhere, I mean EVERYWHERE is closed!So, the gang n kind hearted Hui-ge( he kindly took pity on us and volunteered his driving service to us!thanks man!) ended up in a half sleezy n cannot make it K-ster ktv in Lucky Chinatown. oops, don despise us but everywhere is reallie closed!
its kinda scary there with below reasoning:

there are scary old men walkin ard
the rooms are dark n hot!!(ever heard of ktv rm being HOT!?)
the sound system SUCKS BIG TIME!i mean BADLY BIG TIME!
they give us dirty cushion n sticky mouse to use
we caught a roach, i mean my most hated created THE ROACH!!! tho its small, cmon it appeared after i have eaten half the bowl of chips...DUH!!!

Okie bad enuff hor!? Nvm , we have pretty babes to save the situation + a blooming superstar singing to us in the background. ( pls tune to 心之世界for more details, ha in case she don blog his singing , don box me k? heh)

Darling ah si with fat- faced me!Okie my sisters n messy hair me again! Haiz, I just got to know my 2nd failure! lost to darling ah si in blogging again.
Okie dokie, shall go read her blog n post more pics tom k!

秘密被揭穿。。。。。

2007-02-16T00:30:00.000+08:00

惨了啦，秘密被揭穿！！！

How now brown cow????

原来无知的我，秘密已被揭穿！

我是天下第一大笨猪！

你好，阿力哥！*wave frantically* (热情奔放地挥着我的美手!)

Yes, yes, my dearest 阿力哥has been reading my blog!

*faintz* *faintz big time*

嗨。。都怪自己吃东西没抹嘴巴，竟然在人家的电脑留下蛛丝马迹！

Okie 本想把一切斩草除根！毁灭证据！！！！

NO NO I NOT STUPID!

难道要像白吃那般说着：“此地无银三百两。。。“

这里没有金hor看什么看！

Okie,nvm 进入主题。。。。

我的情人节算是挺浪漫的喔！

作了浪漫的Aspara Couple Spa后，就是丰盛的韩国料理！超好吃！！！！

勤奋又认真的男人最美丽!!!!

勤奋又认真的为我烹调加80分。

其实，没有期望是好事。往往抱着期望都会被失望给打败。

所以可说是因祸得福啦。

阿力哥是不是学乖了？买了一份连钻石也比不上的珍贵礼物！

Presenting.........Jolly Mah's fren- Black Mah!!!!!

是不是超级口爱！看它那无辜的眼神，我真的想把它吃掉！！！哈哈哈。

Oops, no lah, joking heh.

认识我的人都会知道我一看到超口爱的东西，不分人或物都想把它吃掉!哈哈哈。

讲一讲Black Mah 的来源。

坐在Black Mah的右边的它是Jolly Mah. 你们可不要笑喔，我不是瞎扯的啦。

它们的Tag上面真的写着Jolly Mah okie, 不是胡乱取的！

粉红色的Jolly Mah是我们在纽西兰所带回来得回忆，本以为只能在纽西兰才能买的到。

想不到它千里迢迢从纽西兰游来到本国！

(okie, disclaimer: I know it's tag shows MADE IN CHINA. but still, can u lemme indulge in my imagination? thanks. heh)

Jolly Mah 是我很喜爱的棉洋，它常让我想起纽西兰的美，想起百多只棉洋

冲向我们的车子的那一画面。

所以Black Mah 真的能牵动我的心！爱死你了！

现在要赶着去买姐姐的生日礼物，今年过年好忙啊！

下Post再见!

ooh don forget! 阿力哥谢谢你的礼物，我真的好开心喔！

你利害！这次你赢啦！

开心又自恋的我!

旧爱还是最美。。。。？

2007-02-14T01:32:00.000+08:00

15岁の初恋。。。。

是他让忘了我初恋的伤痕。。。谢谢你！

还以为这段恋情会有结局。。。

他的确是我心中的白马王子，但他不适合我。。

谢谢你对我的厚爱，但我不懂得珍惜。。。
从照片中能感觉我说的是哪个他吗？

猪你情人节快乐！

2007-02-14T00:15:00.000+08:00

从没想过今年的情人节会么样过。也不过是吃吃饭，然后就若无其事的回家。对周围那些爱到无可救药的情人也不把他们放在眼里。
Hmm 心血来潮，决定把创意的脑袋揪出来，做一份礼物给他吧。
Okie 吗？这是我用爱心制作的成果！
虽然不是什么艺术品，但我真的用了心把它完成了。
希望你会喜欢哦！

明晚就让你们知道结果！看这个笨猪会不会再不领情，不识抬举，惹本宫生气！哈哈哈！

旧情人。。。
如果在情人节的时候，一直想着旧情人，咋么办！！！？？？
他也有了对象啊，可是为甚么对我说出那番话。
很不对。。
他真的有想我吗？我才不信！
分开了七年的情人居然问我还记得我们为什么分手，是在当年的这几天内发生的，还记得我们喜欢去哪儿数星星，还记得我送他最后的情人节礼物吗！？

抓狂！！！

背叛。。。。。

2007-02-08T00:33:00.000+08:00

歌曲：背叛
曲:曹格
词:阿丹邬裕康
编曲:涂惠源

紧紧相依的心如何say goodbye
你比我清楚还要我说明白
爱太深会让人疯狂的勇敢
我用背叛自己完成你的期盼
把手放开不问一句 say goodbye
当作最后一次对你的溺爱
冷冷清清淡淡今后都不管
只要你能愉快

**********************************

被姐妹们感染到了啦！歌词大战！哈哈哈。。。。
最近很喜欢的一首歌曲，其实很想知道大家对背叛的定义是甚么？
到底对爱情的背叛如何清清楚楚划清界线？

思想上的背叛真得比生理上的背叛罪名少多了吗？
但若连那一丝罪恶感都没有，到底证明了甚么？
是对爱情的不忠，还是沉醉在逃避的幻想世界里。
或，证明了他对我的溺爱已麻木了我对他的爱情。

是我背叛了对他的感情，还是背叛了自己。。
背叛了这几年来细心灌溉的这一下份爱情。

我真的不希望你有一天会发现到我对你的茅盾。

blog abt my ex..........=p

2007-02-04T01:00:00.000+08:00

okie, not very advisable to put up such a yummie l00kin like dish in the middle of the night!

my tummy is yelling at me! argh..... but i cant help but put this up....it l00ks too yummie to delete fr my digi ha.

grateful nothing but filled with gratitude!!! and of cuz this gratitude oozes with touched feelings.

she is so bloody nice! ha. im such a easily satisfied woman.argh hate myself man....

this is given by ah ri's mummie! her fren went paris, bought some bags for her and she ordered one bag for me and ah ri's brother's gf! complex? no la, read again, very easy one !ha =p

its ah ri's bro's gf's bday....but still don reallie nd to buy for me also mah....*touched*

tho maybe its a 顺便thing or trying to not be UNFAIR but still! such little act of concern MELTS ME straight away!

see DERRICK GOH! its nt that difficult to please me can!?

cant believe your mum knws betta! muhaaaa!

( bet he is never gg read my blog *phew*)

p.s okie i mus admit, being bitchy me, start to scrutinize the wallet so much that i was caught red-handed by the mummie!

sorrie auntie don be offended la!

i mean its fr paris mah! in case ur fren cheat u! ha =p

frenz who are GUCCI lovers help me decipher if this is real?

i wanted to take more pics but lousi me ha this is the best i could.

it reallie l00ks real but pretty cheap for this size.

according to aunite goh, its abt 180bucks!

something liddat prolly cuz like erm 300-400 in sing?

tink this is old design. but CLEVER auntie bought it in PINK!!!

I LOVE U AUNTIE GOH!!!

OKIE FOLKS LISTEN Up!

I DID NOT BREAK UP WITH MY AH BOY HOR.....

erm *peace peace*

no throwin of smelly eggs ar!

i mean okie i mus admit, my silly preivous two post sounds abit erm too serious?

but cant help it lah! i mean emotions jus gets the betta of me mah!

if control den will dio 内伤one!

muhaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa. erm *sweat*

also its 真情流露喔！

hmmm liddat hor, ask me how are things...

hummm , also dunno wat to reply. i mean what am i suppose to say.

lame things like, "no lah, things are fine now?" or " we patched up?"

REALLIE LAME HOR.

i mean lame cuz its rathering meaningless replyin to a stagnant situation.

tsk, dunno wad i mean?

i also dunno wad i reallie wanto put across. hopefullie someone understands ya.

another lame thing

me and ah si aka xiao xin aka xinyi are on a race.

we just finish our forthnightly 爱琴海concert, now too high to sleep.

thus we are on a competition of blogging....

apparently someone has won ya....

fine HUMP!

i shall keep my LOVE a secret ....

卖个馆子！( ah si , issit 错字？)

i wanto blog more la, but bit tired...soon ya folks....

till den, cya.....

ha, i wanto blog abt my ex leh,shit......oops!

hiak hiak hiak

心理变态。。。。。

2007-01-23T21:23:00.000+08:00

有时候，总觉得自己心理好变态。。。哈
总喜欢沉浸在很悲伤很悲伤的心情。(SELF -PITY ...You know)
可能是想给自己一个可怜自己的机会。也可能是沉浸已久的浪漫主义又在不觉之中掘起。

哎呀，人家的华文程度退步了啦。。看不懂，或瞄到错别字的华文老师们多多包涵哦！

我是个可怜虫吗？
不，我其实还很幸福，我有很多好朋友，很多死党。
一想起这些可爱的姐妹们，真开心。你们看！
你们是我的绝对SUPERSTAR!

想起他，还是很不甘愿，很不开心，不喜欢落泪。
我不想面对他。

长大了，那么老了。
其实，爱情也不过如此。就好像阿寺说的跟谁在一起终究是一样的。
依旧会淡化，我能挽救那把爱情的火花吗？
我还爱他吗?

有分手后的感觉．．．．．．

2007-01-23T00:19:00.000+08:00

真奇怪．

为甚么，感觉就好像刚分手后．
有甚么好心痛的嘛．．．

希望你能看到我写的一切．
我知道你不会．

希望你睡得很好，不知道我在痛．
我知道明天的我就不会哭了．
可是悲伤应该放哪儿．．．

惊喜。。。。

2007-01-22T23:18:00.000+08:00

等了很久，才等到今天。
三年了，好不容易啊。

真得那么不值得珍惜吗？

我特地请了假，为了就是能把自己打扮得美美的。
因为平时的我，为了工作，就一直忽略了他。
今早特地到了姐姐的家，做了好好吃的Muffins。
我进步了！
但，我相信此刻的他，一定还没吃到半口。

我真得输了。
感情变得好木纳．不，是我，是我变得好木纳．
今天的我没跟他吵，我只是静静的在等待．
我的惊喜一定在后面．
我不能在今晚发脾气．

我真得真得很失望．
我不能在他的面前哭，他一定会生气．
我只能在这里，对你诉苦．
谢谢你听得到我的心中的雨天．

好一个惊喜．

a shot of my happie day in 2006

2006-12-23T17:33:00.000+08:00

@ NYDC, celebratin junz bday beside a xmas tree! its jun junz bday! have not been feelin happie for such a long time oredie.... finallie as we all get so consumed by the daily life routines , we slowly let age outrace us subconsciously. Caught "red-handed" evidence of chaw yee feedin jun jun! adrian scared ant! haaaa, doubt it!=p

check out the starry backgrd, hard to tell we were actuallie all fightin hard with our perspiration!
almost fell in love with chaw yee.............................................................'s camera, totallie haf a slimming effect!

学走路....

2006-10-01T23:59:00.000+08:00

Just a quick one here!
cant wait to upload her pics cuz she is learning how to walk when she is onli less than 9 mths old! haa , okie la with the help of a chair but still cool! way to go my baby!
also, for folks that have seen my baby pic, seriously it's such a stark resemblance of me when I was one! a shot of me singing "marikita ya ya singapura sa...." with hair , very little hair standing! haaaa!I shall dig it out n scan it n load it up!
yeah!

don forget my new fav candie eye sharlotte law le qi!

2006-09-24T20:21:00.000+08:00

last but nt least i haf to put the beauty of my life now, sharlotte law's pic!
tell me she looks like me k! im okie with that..ha!

somemore to go! reneesz bdae todae!

2006-09-24T20:12:00.000+08:00

happie berthdae renee! my dearest mokky yong yong! haaaa! my darlin angel! hope u haf a great bdae! folks check out the top that we bought for her! we are so glad she loved it, way to go ger! u played wonderfullie on the piano on stage! too bad i cant take a pic man!
okie its weird that we r takin pic outside service but who cares la!
check out still gt pastor's pic popping out! haaa!

may all the 25 yr old babies still look as young as 18!

update 一下下。。。哈！

2006-09-24T19:52:00.000+08:00

Dear folks, before I kena complain I shall update my blog. haiz sometimes its quite a hassle cuz im a very lazy person. i like to put pictues cuz a picture paints a thousand words, so i don haf to write too much! muhahahahaha! here it goes, first show u all my berthdae pic, long awaited belated bday celebration with my bexties:
3 of us tring so hard to squeeze our fat fat face in the camera, heres the results!
ice-cream bday "cake"haaa.
even @ 25 we still insist on singng the sacred berthdae song!

my lovely ladies.......................ha!

三朵金花..........................

2006-08-08T00:50:00.000+08:00

Pictures

2006-08-08T00:33:00.000+08:00

Thanks to ah si, she once taught me the reason why she always take so many pictures.
Tis is in preparation for occassions when good old frens come tog or when u are at retirement, u wld like to sit down n look at what u did in ur life, in those good old youthful days.
Such a simple fact yet many fail to grasp the true meaning of capturing these moments of happiness. u cant stop them fr leaving but u can save some to savour everytime u look at them, the pictures. Thanks ah si!

jux gian to put pics!

2006-08-08T00:26:00.000+08:00

its reallie nt a postcard!

rem the good old days in kiwi land!

finallie lemme announce my reasons for my absence+ 25th day.....

2006-08-07T00:11:00.000+08:00

Well FOLKS!

I have been having some probs with my blog! everytime I try to create a post, it got hang!thus, explaining the testing 123 as below as my 证据！哈哈哈！
Its been long! I shall 1st blog abt my dearie berthday day , a wonderful day.

U know folks, I was quite upset on this day, partially affected by WORK and also tinkin that NO ONE REMEMBERS dear old huimin's bday! but to my surprise n blessings! i received many many wishes fr many folks n even unexpected frens! Now i know how it feels to receive blessings on bday fr frenz u nvr knew they rem ur bday!I shall make it a pt to note down as many bdays as i can on my organiser!

As my conso pic has shown, I had a good sinful bday lunchie with family n horrible crystal jade. NEVER dine there if you wish to converse with your family memebers during lunch. cuz u will NEVER HEAR each other! I cant belief this! this one @ suntec is so so noisy! its like a MARKET! but it was good sinful lunchie!

after which we went to highly recomended THAI1827, thanks to ah lian who had her wedding dinner there, if nt i will never knew of such a romantic plac with such good ambience!food was perfectly sinful! i decided to fight agst diet monster n INDULGE on this day! haaaa! GRILLED KING PRAWNS yummie! and the dessert is yummie yummie yummie!

oh yes, pls lemme complain on behalf of ah drick, he ordered these flowers fr FAR EAST FLORIST and 1st the tulips nvr bloomed, 2ndly it looks SO DIFFERENT den the one one the website! nvr order fr them unless u personally knw the manager of far east florist, those folks who knw me long enuff shd knw wad i mean....damn! i feel so painful for my dear ah dirck. spent a bomb yet unpleasantly surprised.

tho this yr with budget constrain, no LEE HWA stones > <> <. in the end, we selected this vintage pendant, i tell u I LOVE IT! tho its nt expensive l00kin ( even tho it is very ex!), I LOVE IT! thanks baby!

also, besides thankin dear old frens who rem my bday n gave me such sweet wishes, my dear ah si and jun jun was so sweet to stay up late with me even if they had to wake up so early the next day! thanks to hui ge too! it goes to show, its nt reallie the celebration, there nd nt be one in fact. its reallie the tots, reallie. no matter wad we do or where we go, i reallie had a great time!
thanks jie mei men! i love u!!!
and hor! the day has begun, the battle agst ageing monster! thanks for providing the warrior with the weapon - Origins Anti Ageing Plantidoe Serum.
I will provide quarterly report with a detailed analysis!

ha ha....haiz....old liao how how how!

testing testing

2006-08-06T23:49:00.000+08:00

testing 1 2 3.............

...~诗的秘密花园~...: 难得的HIGH!

2006-04-27T23:29:00.000+08:00

...~诗的秘密花园~...: 难得的HIGH!

That one night.......@KTV!

2006-04-27T23:06:00.000+08:00

This is the one night of hell lotsa fun!

well done to ah si for "smoothening " out and makes our face so pretty n smooth! yeah! Pretty ah si with her new BANGS! gosh! pls raise ur hands up and agree with me she look like RAINE YANG CHENG LING! *nod nod* >_<

okie dokies folks, all see that i was tryin SO HARD to "gek" a pose, mission failed! haa, ah shi so concentrated sia...wohoo!

relliez back!

2006-04-15T15:25:00.000+08:00

Dear all, my beloved bloggers! IT'S BEEN A THOUSAND YEARS!!! haaa, yup I mus admit I am lazy pig. After I've slaved myself to that evil sect( my job), I am too consumed by my work n stress! no life, no time at all. haiz..... BUDDEN! not to worrie! Im leavin that hell place soon! come 8th may is the day of freedom!

Next as you can see above the wind is blowing so strongly, I really suspect I would have been blown and gone in the wind if I did not sit tight in my seat! This is the " Enchanted Island" so to speak. Well, minasan! don be deceived! My unlomantic fool bought some 300bucks tickets on vday to bring me to this "ISLAND" and then to figure out , it is the very "KUSU ISLAND" of Singapore......... diao...wadever, rem? thy new definition of love-contentment..hiak hiak hiak....

Back to the picture above, well jus to present my precious!
reallie startled when I found this box of thing on my bed.
Well I mus say sometimes that unlomantic fool can be sweet as well.
well well, sometimes, you jus have to live in contentment and here I am, savouring my new definition of happiness- contentment.

kena TAGGED again! :(

2005-12-11T23:08:00.000+08:00

5 random things about myself:

1) perpetually stressed now ;(

2) trying not to spend so much ! shopping its everywhere! i love xmas! but can i don spend?

3) everyone who knws me calls me the PINK FREAK

4) I MISS HONEY DOGGIE! the love of my life!

5) I cant live without my friends! but I haben been meeting up with them sobs sobs!

Can I don tag pple? Don think I have enuff frens on my lists to TAG!=p ha.

Meme!

2005-12-03T15:33:00.000+08:00

7种令我感到害怕的……1. 蟑螂！！！2.失眠 3. 青春痘 4. 没钱 5. 看不到HONEY! 6. 没事做！7. 跟阿力哥吵架

7样我最喜欢的……1. 人：阿力、我的好朋友们，旧同事！！周董！Superstar derrick!

2. 嗜好：音乐、逛街、唱歌、看狗狗，跳舞，打Beach Volleyball, 做 DIY Manicure .....

3. 食物： The Cheesecake Cafe 的 Cheesecake!田鸡粥，小辣椒。。。

4. 饮料：白开水，Orange Juice, Meiji 的牛奶（咖啡口味）

5. 颜色：粉红，红，橙！！！

6.美女：我认识很多美女啦！写不完嘛！

7. 帅哥：我喜欢可爱型的坏男人，这类型的就是我所谓的帅哥啦！

7件房里不可缺的东西……1. 床2. 枕头3. 我的“乌龟”4. 粉红色的东西 5. 护肤品6. 镜子7. 梳妆台

7件我能做的事……1. 常常跌倒，Clumsy(阿力每次都说的）2. 看SCV 的 Channel 54, 51, 21... 3. 每个星期三和星期天都要做脸4. 无所事事时就做DIY Manicure5. 整理衣橱6. 整理后就丢东西！7. 星期天睡到三点！

7件我不能做的事……1. 开车2. 没带手机3. 不用护肤品4. 说广东话5. 打电脑游戏如 CS, War Crath6. 看不到我的狗狗Honey!7. 修电脑

7句常说的话……1. lor 2. win liao 3. wao laoz 4. muahahhaha 5. pls huh 6. 哟哟 7. 我爱dERRICK! HA!

farewell@hitachi...SOBS SOBS

2005-11-05T17:23:00.000+08:00

haiz,im gg miss u all so much!
i was pleasantly surprised on 31st oct 2005. It is my last day in Hitachi.
Its been 2 long years! I have learn and grown, i guess it is time to move on.
Parting is always difficult, haiz, next time dun be so close !haha
my silly feilou said he fears that i may regret this change in career path.
well i hope i dun, fear of the unknown always exist in everyone's heart.
I will carry the wishes fr my dear folks n face the upcoming storm bravely.
no matter wat, i chose to be where i am now.

deRRicK要加油！

2005-10-22T22:40:00.000+08:00

heard fr Shishi that derrick will sign contract with PLAY MUSIC! yeah!deRRicK要加油！加油！加油！加油！

oN seVEntEeN!?

2005-10-17T22:52:00.000+08:00

haha! me n my baby on seventeen!
well, well well! waited for quite some time and its finallie out... we were so eager to look at the pics more than anything! but it did not turn out as well as expected! but who cares! being the commoners (haha), its quite fun to get photoshoots and featured on a mag! all thanks to my dear fren Jas! and my baby has to thank me for this chance of fun , cuz wifout feisty and sassy me(quoted fr the writer), my baby will nt get the chance to knw me! Hiak hiak hiak...for all of you who dun knw, I got to know him at a club and this edition of seventeen tells all abt how we got to knw each other! so go get it!( no no they din pay me any commission to advertise!ha) yah i must admit, they made me uglier than usual and edited the shape of my baby's nose! and the photographer shot my fat thighs! argh ok enuff of complains!

2005-10-03T00:21:00.000+08:00

Yes! this is how close we were ! hiak ha ha ha! well, we thought we were mad and crazy but who cares! we paid for the tix leh! so me n Shi decided to go forth and take closer pics and this is our rewards! think derrick was close to tears when the concert ended, sigh HAIZ..............................................

2005-10-03T00:15:00.000+08:00

This is me and Shi at the SUPERSTAR CONCERT 2005! * DRUM ROLLS* Well! i must say it was really NOT BAD! for the price we paid and we were sitting at the very 5th row!!!! the best is yet to be, til you see the next picure! hiak hiak hiak!

2005-10-03T00:09:00.000+08:00

Chaw Yee and me trying to pose our best before we start the show!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Well, it is just so nice to be working with a fren fr NUS and bring so much nostalgia, not to forget the wit and humor that this guy really brings to everyone! hope his BIG day comes soon! okie by then, I volunteer to be ur emcee la! hiak!

2005-10-03T00:03:00.000+08:00

hey hey hey to all! this is my dearest ah si's ROM! and this is de evidence! ha! its a picture of the STAR COUPLE and jue due HOSTs! ha! hope ah si and hui ge dun think we screw it all up! nice picture captured by my ah drick!

Derrick u are still my super star!

2005-08-12T15:38:00.000+08:00

sobs sobs sobs...those who think that im overaged tobe a fan laugh at me ba!
but im still upset man!
depressed!

Dark Alley in Hong Kong

2005-08-09T01:47:00.000+08:00

HEY TO ALL FRENZ!

I am bac from my beloved HONG KONG!
OOPS, National Day coming liao, how can I say that ! haha (><)v

any way, the pic on the right shows one of the many dark back alleys in HK, in the midst of their concrete Jungle....

okie i admit I am a sua khoo, take such pictures.... and its true that many hongkies thinks im mad!hahaha bleh!

2005-05-16T00:32:00.000+08:00

Awwwww...2 haha=p

2005-05-16T00:25:00.000+08:00

Awwwww....

在你心目中，我是句号，问号还是感叹号？

2005-01-23T22:39:00.000+08:00

heh heh gt inspired by this famous silly movie on sunday night.

have we ever asked our loved ones, what do we represent to them?

the final stop? that ends meekly,routinely,safely in a contented traditional fashion.

questions.ambiguity.doubts.fears.uncertanities."i juz dunch knw" kinda answer.

or full of pleasant surprises, shock, screams!

as i told many frenz, the definition of the different punctuation depends very much on the individual.

hence, time to make your guess n pose this qn to him/her!?

(^@^)

他说我是他的句号，但我愿我是他的感叹号。。。
他说我是他生命中的终点，为何我还那麽的不知足。。。。

depressed

2005-01-15T05:16:00.000+08:00

im born to suffer on earth, so why shd man still procreate...

厭世的な

2005-01-05T17:20:00.000+08:00

....

2005-01-02T14:36:00.000+08:00

Dining wif e kNIght @ OlivE tRee...

this is me n knight derrick @Olive tree...hmm seafood...but nt dat fantastic afterall..check out his new british inda top! fr me!ouch** on pocket..but look damn brillant!v(^ *)v

2005-01-02T14:16:00.000+08:00

ever heard of brown roses?

Okie I admit, I'm reallie bored, its been raining the whole 3 days! hmm when will these tears ever stop flowing? when there are still beautiful things ard so dun freat ya!check these out man! this is the 1st bouquet of flowers my knight.kinda surprise cuz never tot he will reallie buy them! ha..guess wat these are acutallie brown in color! brown roses! hmmm, nevertheless, i tink i made them beautiful! aint they!

2005-01-01T17:35:00.000+08:00

Xmas gd buy!

http://photos.friendster.com/photos/93/58/2208539/8625998330544l.jpg

cherish item 3: silly happiness==>wearing my xmas gd buy on a new yrs eve! ha women,,, u knw why we nd a women's card. nwadays our egoism soared so much tt e nd to distinguish ourselves becomes inevitable, ha, wateva i love SHOPPIN! muacks!**

2005-01-01T16:16:00.000+08:00

CHERISH item 2: cmon dun tink its the diamonds la. i wanna cherish this diamond giver hahaha!some how feel dere's an obligation to post this xmas pressi m(' ")m

2005-01-01T16:11:00.000+08:00

CHERISH item 1 : h0Ney baBY!

unknown 2005

2005-01-01T15:41:00.000+08:00

hey HAPPIE NEW YEAR TO ALL BELOVEd!

ha its time to blog b4 my frenz says i write too little on my blog!
thanks to all who read this some stewpig bloggi of mine!

well i haf no RESOLUTIONS this year...why..
cuz i always make alot but it realli din seem to work out..

am i too lazy? no determination? no fighting spirits? no motivation?

or have i learnt to be too easliy contented?in the past I used to be so envious of pple who are so easliy contented cuz i tink i cant. Im greedy of ambitions, but maybe becuz pessismissim has mellowed me .

Being resigned to fate= easily contented?

anyway its a quiet xmas n new year for me. wonder wat it depicts? a quiet 2005?
well we always fear the unknown, don we all.

I always carry with me a cynical laugh at the tot of End of the World. But now, i fear.

its nt the fear of its end, but the fear of losing what I have nw. I fear my own cynism when become reality will be laughing at me one day.

Seriously note to all: Cherish.

I dont wanto die without tellin my loved ones how much i love them.

SIGH okie lets not all get depressive sia!(^ ^)v

Its a new year! hope its a new beginning! beginning of the end? or end of the beginning.

Ganbatte neh!

haB()uring on doIn nuThin ha....

2004-11-23T13:26:00.000+08:00

hey kinda took 2 days off, doin nuthing, realli practicalli nuthin ha, but somehow there is so much fun for doin this nuthin...well

we are all perverse aint we..?

always whine n bitch abt work yadayayda, yet it occupies so much of our lives that we become so engulfed in them.. subconsciously and willingly enslaves ourselves to such dependency. sigh. human. money. meaning of life. hmm. God knws.

its a farnie thing how i love to disillusion myself.well i guess thats how i stewpigly heal my own wounds. well again tinkin that im undergg some sorta healin therapy..am i? hmm. well nevertheless, i like to nurse myself in the care of disillusion. why am i tokkin abt this.

well once i spoke to my colleagues abt how i miss my honey doggie. THEY JUST TOLD ME HEY SHE IS No LONGER YOUR PUPPY HOR.

again since is my off days i grant honey off too heh! so she is wif me now. hmm.

hmm ever since i gave her away. I kept bringing her out , every 2- 3 weeks. am i guilty of the robbery of her new life? maybe im jus plain selfish. but i don want her to forget me. see disillusion, shd haf jus stop myself fr seein her right.

I cant.

sigh wat to do wif a person like me?

ha back to work tom...darn. cycle begins, gossip, bitchin. politics. figures.emails.shame.

BLEH.(^@^)

lOve at 1st sight, tell me if it exist..

2004-11-18T22:36:00.000+08:00

well, does anyone still believe in the LOVE AT FIRST SIGHT..(aka LAFS)
hmm in fact for such a silly person like me, there are many love at 1st sights, ha ex SHOES.
i tink for whole of dis yr, bought 2 pairs of LAFS. seriously, who can explain how i can effect LAFS to shoes ..haha mayb my baby can...

nt sure why i started this, nt LAFS, but maybe to note dwn all the LAFS, all the sweet secrets of mine n share wif all my beloved.

tinkin abt how i met my baby at wongs, quite chessy ya. ha tho i was abit tipsy but yet i tink its LAFS. somehow or rather maybe its the scent of a person...

once , one of my besy fren told me that we humans are actuallie attracted to each others' scent,
well like we all knw each n every individual has their very own unique scent, and when we feel attracted to this particular person, we are actuallie subconsciously attracted to his smell!
cool huh! ha feels like animals tho...we are , aint we ..afterall.

well, i kinda miss dat scent right nw..(T T)

~swEet seCRetz 2 relle~

忙碌还是盲碌？ 我还是回到原点。快乐、我能再次拥有你吗?

My girlfren asked : so when r u getting married...

为什么一直错过幸福？

capturing all til i forget

2008...

the commonality-will live in faded memory...放开了拳头反而更自由

Jay Chou - 失落非主流

失落非主流 - 周杰伦

essential happiness

today is 5th august...my birthday

so excited!

Loving you....waiting....

Split personality.....

为汶川大地震 林俊杰

虽然我愿意-伍家辉

lost internet connection, seems like i lost half my world...digust at such realisation..

Queen of night

wad an emotional torture!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

我决定放开了，回到我的避风港。。。:)

若你是我，你会怎么做？

My precious little ones + long delayed colls' piz

Planning CNY 2009

my life's plateau

A Christmas Letter to you...

babyz day @ rasa

好想对他说的话...

我们的约定,你记得吗...

i lost my precious wallet! curse the person who took it! :(

the day(s) we quarrelled

drained.....

im havin some heart 2 heart tok with him... wad a farnie feeling...=)

my reply to ur sms

人性本善。。。。。。。我呸！

无题。。。

talkin to my ex crush..........inexplicable feelin...

an inconvenient truth

傻瓜

a picture paints a thousand words..great

what shd i do

romance @ de sea

没有你的日子，还不是这样的过.......

好想念这种感觉

withdrawal symptoms..............

超级明星脸

I wanto my blog color to be PINK!

relliez back! again! when is ur last puppie love?

谈恋爱的感觉。。。。。

冬冬枪！冬冬枪！冬冬枪冬枪冬冬枪！！

秘密被揭穿。。。。。

旧爱还是最美。。。。？

猪你情人节快乐！

背叛。。。。。

blog abt my ex..........=p

心理变态。。。。。

有分手后的感觉．．．．．．

惊喜。。。。

a shot of my happie day in 2006

学走路....

don forget my new fav candie eye sharlotte law le qi!

somemore to go! reneesz bdae todae!

update 一下下。。。哈！

三朵金花..........................

Pictures

jux gian to put pics!

finallie lemme announce my reasons for my absence+ 25th day.....

testing testing

...~诗的秘密花园~...: 难得的HIGH!

That one night.......@KTV!

relliez back!

kena TAGGED again! :(

Meme!

farewell@hitachi...SOBS SOBS

deRRicK要加油！

oN seVEntEeN!?

Derrick u are still my super star!

Dark Alley in Hong Kong

在你心目中，我是句号，问号还是感叹号？

depressed

厭世的な

忙碌还是盲碌？我还是回到原点。快乐、我能再次拥有你吗?

为汶川大地震林俊杰