4.2.08

my life's plateau

caught in the act...red-handed...wanted to secretly snap a shot of "evidence" but was caught by honey! ha
reviving my youth!

i cant belief i duno hw to use such machines anymore! God!
i cant belief he is so near yet so far..


20.12.07

A Christmas Letter to you...

Hello dear friend!

Well, as you know, it's time for my birthday again. Last year, they had a real big party for me and it seems like they will again this year. After all, they've been shopping and preparing for it for months now, and there have been announcements and advertisements almost everyday about how soon it's coming! They really do go overboard about it, but it's nice to know that at least on one day of the year some people are thinking about me a little.
You know, it's been many years now since they first started celebrating my birthday. Back then they seemed to realize and appreciate how much fun it is for the little children. Just the same, it seems that most folks are missing the point of it all. Like last year, for example: When my birthday came around, they threw a big party, but can you believe it?... I wasn't invited! Imagine! The guest of honor, and they forgot all about me! Here they had begun preparing for the festivities two months in advance, but when the big day came, I was left out in the cold!
Well, it happened so many times in recent years, I wasn't even surprised. Even though I wasn't invited, I thought I'd just quietly slip in anyway. So I came in and stood off to the side. Everyone was drinking, laughing and having a grand time, when all of the sudden, in came this fat fellow in a bright red suit, wearing a phony white beard and shouting, "Ho Ho Ho!"
He looked like he had more than enough to drink, but he somehow managed to weave his way running the floor while everyone cheered. When he collapsed into a big armchair, all the children went running over to him excitedly yelling, "Santa!! Santa!!"
I mean, you'd have thought he was the guest of honor and the whole holiday was in his honor! Then he began telling them the most ridiculous stories you've ever heard ... that he lived at the North Pole with a crew of dwarfs and that every year on my birthday he rides in his sleigh pulled by a bunch of flying reindeers, delivering presents to children all over the world!! I mean there wasn't a word of truth in anything he said! Imagine telling such poor, little, impressionable kids such far-fetched fables! Finally I just had to leave, I walked out of the door, and it was hardly surprising that no one even noticed that I had gone.
As I walked on the street afterward, I felt about as lonely and forlorn as stray dogs! I could hardly remember the last time I'd felt that low. Maybe you do not think I cry...........
Another thing that amazes me is how, on my birthday, instead of giving me presents, most people give presents to each other!
And to top it all off, it's usually all kinds of stuff they don't even need! Let me ask you, wouldn't you find it odd if when your birthday came along, all your friends decided to celebrate it by giving each other presents and never gave you a thing? Someone once told me, well, it's because you're not around like other people are, so how can we give you a present?
You know my answer to that one: Then give gifts of food and clothing to the poor, help those who need it. Go visit the lonely! I said, Listen, any gift you give to your needy fellowmen, I'll count as if you gave it to me personally! (See Matthew 25:34-40)
Well sad to say, things are getting worse each year. You can just imagine my shock a few years ago when I began seeing them taking my name out of my birthday greeting and replacing it with an X. What an insult!! Think of it!...X-mas!! What if I wrote you a birthday card and said Happy Birthday X! You'd probably never talk to me again!
And that's just about how I feel, I mean what more could they do to push me right out of the picture on my own birthday? It reminds me of what happened recently to a friend of mine, a sweet elderly fellow. He's from the poorer side of town and he's been trying unsuccessfully for years to join the church. But it was a very exclusive church for the proper kind of folks, and they just did not think he was good enough to be a member.
I found him one day sitting by the church steps with his head on his hands bowed and I asked him what was wrong, he told me about it, I put my arm around his shoulder and told him I knew how he felt. I've been wanting to enter that same church for twenty years and they've never let me in either! Well, there's an end even to my patience. So I'm going to let you in on a secret.........
Now this is something I've been planning on doing for quite sometime, but the way things are going, I think I'm planning of holding my own party! How about that? It's going to be the biggest most fantastic feast you could possibly imagine! It might not happen this year, but I'm sending out invitations now anyway because I know you'll want to come.
There's going to be room for billions, for everyone who wants to come! Some really famous old timers and celebrities are going to be there and I'll reserve you a seat of honor right with them! (Matthew 8:11) So hold on to your hat because when everything is ready, I'm going to spring it as a big surprise and a lot of people are going to be left out in the cold, because they didn't answer my invitation!! Let me know right away if you'd like to come, and I'll reserve you a place and, write your name in large golden letters in my BIG GUEST BOOK!!

Much Love, JESUS
Ninure Saunders aka Rainbow Christian

25.11.07

好想对他说的话...

不知为何,常在潜意识梦见他。好想对他说的话,就是如这首歌那么简单。真的好想知道他过得好吗?而也希望能听到真实的答案。也不知为何,是第六感吗?还是潜意识? 我一直有一种奇怪的直觉,他好像很不快乐。我是该坦白的问候他吗?看到网上关于他的资料,为甚麽感觉那么闷闷不乐?
想想分开有9年的时间。。。好恐怖啊!!!哈哈,不能不认老啦,残了啦。
虽然事别9年,记忆犹新。我们的分开并不是很不快乐,可能是在一起的时间短暂,没有过真正轰轰烈烈的爱,就是那很纯朴被彼此吸引。也可能因此对他的记忆比其他前男友好多。
这莫名其妙的直觉是最近才产生的,前几年就只有偶尔梦到他,也不为希奇。这种经验,大家都有吧。有时候还会幻想有重逢的机会,哈。
怎么办啊?看着办吧.

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歌曲:你好吗
歌手:李玖哲/周笔畅 专辑:想太多

温柔的时间抚平我们的亏欠
过几天过几年伤会好一点

多久没见面孩子气有没有变
还记得我们从前笑的那么甜

baby 我想起你你有了他
是否依然为了爱变的很傻
我想起你你有一个他
好久都没说的话你好吗

温柔的缠绵我也放下了依恋
过几天过几年伤会好一点

我收着照片安静在盒子里面
回忆是你我剩下唯一的关联

baby 我想起你你有了他
是否依然为了爱变的很傻
我想起你你有一个他
好久都没说的话你好吗

问候是我对你好想说出的话
现在你过的好吗

我想起你你有了他
是否依然为了爱变的很傻
我想起你你有一个他
好久都没说的话你好吗

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8.11.07

我们的约定,你记得吗...

蒲公英的约定

作词:方文山作曲:周杰伦

小学篱芭旁的蒲公英

是记忆里有味道的风景

午睡操场传来蝉的声音

多少年后也还是很好听

将愿望折纸飞机寄成信

因为我们等不到那流星

认真投决定命运的硬币

却不知道到底能去哪里

一起长大的约定

那样清晰打过勾的我相信

说好要一起旅行

是的如今唯一坚持的任性

在走廊上罚站打手心

我们却注意窗边的蜻蜓

我去到哪里你都跟很紧

很多的梦在等待着进行

一起长大的约定

那样真心

与你聊不完的曾经

而我已经分不清

你是友情还是错过的爱情

13.10.07

the day(s) we quarrelled

DAY: SATURDAY
WEATHER:SIGNS OF UTI

UTI aka urinal tract infection. look im nt tryin to b gross. but cmon! it is such an appropriate description of thew weather these days in Singapore, dont ya agree? I mean, it was rainy at 10plus, gt slightly sunny in the noon, drizzled abit at 3 and its fine again. look! aint it symptons of UTI!haaaa, nvm, i guess its jus simply irritating how the weather sometimes reallie gets on ur nerves while it forces u to decide on whether or nt to carry a brolly.


anyway, i can list dwn the no of ABSURD things he does when we quarrel:

1)smashed his laptop monitor (ACCIDENT HAPPENED TODAY)

2)smashed his window with his fist, leavin droplets of blood inside n outside the house, sounds like a murder scene sia?

3) use his leg to smash the photoframe i gave him. outcome: broke his heel bone n was on mc for 2 mths. during the 2 mths of "rest", he went online to get to knw some ger(s) thr wholivesnearu and got caught by me.ha. ( intended sacarsm)

4)smashed my room's door, when my parents are overseas. when they were backed n asked me, i had to feign ignorance. he said he will repair it, IT NEVER HAPPENED. ( year to date since it last happened: 2years ++)

5)smashed a mac flurry ice-cream in his car. i was dirtied all over. but i was cool =), i walked out of his car ,calmly and hailed for a cab.

6)smashed porridge all over his living room, he had to ended up cleaning the place in the end. tink he hurt his hand with the chopsticks.

7)broke Crystal Jade's chopstick into 2. i wonder why the manager did nt asked 4 compensation.ha, perhaps he did not wan more chopsticks broken!

8) i tink there were more, but cant reallie rem....


yes i admit, i haf an extreme bad temper. or perhaps i jus simply refuse to face the reality that we shd haf long ago left each other and nt be burdened by emotional reliance on each other. perhaps the commonality btw us is that both of us has this little self righteousness that consumed ourselves with so much irrational emotion that binds us together,too tightly n wrongly.

i was waitin 4 him 2be online,quite silly hor. but its jus the relentless flirtatous that we throw to each other that makes it so exciting n fun.i wonder when will i get to c him again,haiz. hopefullie when my ugly face recovers man. i cant believed i missed the call n nvr gt bac in the end. i guess nw that our distance is so stretched, i wonder when i will see him again. he said he was near my ex branch when he called me, damn! =( i hope he is doin well and i tink he is, guess he can understand my "torture" more. but he said i cld do it!!! =) somehow, its the same words everyone says to me, but it jus FEELS different when he says so .ha.

mina-san, confused? nvm la, ignore me, this is truly my avenue to my freedom.
i am fine! jus wanna pen it down, feels terrific.
pls come online soon! > <
shit, missed my guess show,ciao!
so blur sia, only few pics of recent , my gers send me some of my pics ya! =p

drained.....

DAY: FRIDAY
WEATHER:SUNNY BUT RAINED IN NOON

I feel so drained.
mentally n physically, when I tot life has just turned better, i was wrong.
in seekin fr refuge away fr those threathening hands of politics, i end up walkin straight into their trap.
MORE POLITICS. MORE SUCKING UP.MORE SPECULATION.

haiz. i jus wanted to do my due dilligence.
but I truly beleve the Lord did not put me in a place to torture me. if He put me here, He would bless me!
I will survive.

STATE of mind: FRIED
side track:
this is a pic of my doggie ,bitin the ball of her life to sleep.....sweet.

3.10.07

my reply to ur sms

She msg me today : Hey ger, heard u got promoted to **, congratulations!
my reply:
i dunno wad to reply.
am i suppose to be like a 2 headed snake like u n pretend to be best of frens with u, while i confide in u, u promise to me nvr to say, u did the exact opposite.
this is nt pri sch secret, it affects my career, my reputations.
yes, i chose to forgive u, but i did not chose to be FAKE.
i haf a right to be myself, the real me, the original me, the person that exposed barenakedly to u.
i chose to still be me.
ha.
*********************
today i dressed excitedly, but nuthing happen, no sms, no meeting, no lunch.
dude, probably the last time to meet.
too bad. haiz =(
i was excited.
this is me, overwhelmed by expectations ,drunk with disappointed.

人性本善。。。。。。。我呸!

原来我还是个天真幼稚的小学生。
为甚么要每一回都考验我的心。
为甚么要我承受背叛的滋味?
人性本善。。。。我选择原谅你对我的背叛。
我会活的更快乐。

2.10.07

无题。。。

歌曲名:蔷蔷 by Ella

还记得你喜欢咬着我的手
然后给我你嘴里的球 要我陪你玩丢丢
你喜欢我摸摸你的小耳朵
窝在我的身旁没有烦忧 在梦里遨游
好狗狗 好狗狗
谢谢你陪妈咪这么久
你并没有离开我是搬到天堂生活
蔷蔷你要记得我 你不要走丢
快快找到天使 在天堂给我保佑
蔷蔷不要忘了我
还有亲爱的阿姨叔叔和你的朋友
你永远活在记忆中

还记得你喜欢咬着我的手
然后给我你嘴里的球 要我陪你玩丢丢
你喜欢我摸摸你的小耳朵
窝在我的身旁没有烦忧 在梦里遨游
好狗狗 好狗狗
谢谢你陪妈咪这么久
你并没有离开我是搬到天堂生活
蔷蔷你要记得我你不要走丢
快快找到天使 在天堂给我们保佑
蔷蔷不要忘了我
还有亲爱的阿姨叔叔和你的朋友
你永远活在记忆中
(OS:蔷蔷 谢谢你)
蔷蔷你要记得我 你不要走丢
快快找到天使在天堂给我保佑
蔷蔷不要忘了我
还有亲爱的阿姨叔叔和你的朋友
你永远活在记忆中

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狗狗,我好怕失去你喔。
还好,现在的你肥如胖猪,我还是觉得我有义务要帮你主持公道!
天理何在!不能让那些虐待狗狗的禽兽逍遥法外!!!
受了高等教育,身为会计师,老公是法庭顾问,连养一只小狗多要我来教。
我呸!恶心!
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真是搞不懂人性,有好多时候让我几乎对人失去信心。
最近,有好多好多让人心烦的事,包括周围好朋友的烦恼,不知何时就背负起别人的重担。
有好多朋友笑我好傻,但你能忍心看好朋友摧毁生命吗?
有好多次都想老老实实的对你说出真心话,但总是没勇气。
害怕伤害到你,你的自尊心,我们的友谊会因此断线吗?
你能打开心怀,安静,冷静地听我们说吗?
我最讨厌别人在我面前说你的是非,我却束手无策。
我好难过!我好难受!


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是不是开始怀疑我精神失调啊?没啦,women 嘛,就是这样子的咯。
想不想看一下最近丑丑肥肥的我啊?
请看以下....




两个siao char bo..... 和我送的花!好久没买花了,感觉真好。。



30.8.07

an inconvenient truth

Well, i can't believe i actuallie learnt more about this at work..gosh...
i mean they were trying to "educate" us more so that bank slaves like us will push more for their funds. apparently, this free movie shown to us did not work to their advantage. well or at least, it kept me going" can you don use so many plastic bags!!"

ha, i tell you guys, its reallie kinda fun, being environmentally friendly.
well, it does not hurt to be more sacarstic than i am.
nowadays, EVERY time, i mean EVERY TIME, i make a purchase and this cashier try to "bag" me with guilt, i will say loudly so that the people q-ing behind me could hear:
"Auntie ar, I dont need plastic bag, I WANTO SAVE THE EARTH!!!!"

ha, it work a few times as friends /colls ard me will be confronted with enormous guilt and happily allow me to claim victory on my "campaign".
so one less person using plastic bag. shiok. 爽!
anyway below some trailers for everyone, hope it spikes out our desire to be more mindful of this world.

ha, did the earth betray us?
no.
we betrayed the earth.

An Inconvenient Truth



haa, this is quite farnie...

A Terrifying Message from Al Gore

23.8.07

傻瓜

I am so missing my long hair already.....
darling ah si once told me, after you had ur cheap thrill n hoo haa from cutting off ur hair.
soon.
its nt so fun after all....
DAMN.
i hate it cuz she is so right.
how? how to prevent anti aging and wish my hair becomes long again tomorrow?
how abt hair extensions plus botox? ha, all in one hor, ya. i knw im cool.
bimbotically cool. so? hmpf. bleh. =p
finallie came across this pic on baby's pc, hit it right in my face.
and ya ya, its the wallpaper of my phone, simply so obviously show whom i missed most!ha.
woman are such figures of irony yeah.


heard on radio this really nice song, quite well written, simple yet nice.
wanna share with everyone. and as usual, lyrics as below , can sing along heh.
温岚,傻瓜
词曲/吴克群 编曲:鸦片丹

其实他做的坏事我们都懂
没有什么不同 眼光闪烁
暧昧流动 闭上眼当作听说
其实别人的招数我们都懂
没有什么不同 故作软弱
撒娇害羞 只是有一点别扭
傻瓜也许单纯地懂
爱得没那么做作
爱上了我不保留
傻瓜 我们都一样
被爱情伤了又伤
相信这个他不一样
却又再一次受伤
傻瓜 我们都一样
受了伤却不投降
相信付出会有代价
代价只是一句傻瓜

anyway, came across this movie, FAST FOOD NATION.
always wanted to watch it but nvr reallie gt a chance
ignorant me used to tink it muz be some sarcastic comedy.
but well, YUCKS!
i am so nt gg to take fast food!
below is a sneak preview.
if required will get some better d/l.
haiz, i hate to see the poor moo moos....
by the way , if u plan to eat fast food, better nt watch it.
an inconvenient truth, indeed.




11.8.07

a picture paints a thousand words..great

well its kinda 4.08am.
i wonder if insomnia is an activity, a pasttime or maybe an excuse.
excuse to find solace in the escaping seconds of time.
what a deliberate attempt to justify myself .
eyes are burning, I thank God that a picture paints a thousand words...

i always wanted you, you are mine now>< sweetening moments @ top of mwhat a great day, thanks baby
onli pic taken at p s cafe, beautiful jas n me
darling
with new hair cut
p.s thanks gers for makin 050807 a great one

2.8.07

what shd i do

haiz, state of confusion.
comfort zone.
desire of the unknown, attracting you.also,
if i stay in the comfort zone, i haf to work very very hard n pray 4 a miracle.
only God can help me.

if i choose the greener pasture, looks exciting and glamorous.
but im so unsure if i can make it.
can i reallie make it? i may do well in my comfort zone, but wad if i fail elsewhere?
maybe im only good at where i am now?
y is it that others can do it? while i dwell in such denial?
if i choose this new path, will i bear the sin of guilt n the betrayer?
the hypocrite? will anyone rememeber how i was denied?

mmm......

if u were me?
would u stay in comfort zone or leave bravely for the unknown?

God , pls give me a clear sign.

30.4.07

romance @ de sea

summary......
hello mina-san! I am officially on leave till 9th May! BORED. i am such a die hard workaholic, cant wait to go back to work. siao si boh! ha. anyway as you all can see it romance at de sea! its been a long time since I took de cruise. You know last time when u were younger ,prolly went with parents n cant rem a single thing except that they dump u at arcade for their casinos....ha.
anyway ah ri is so moutain turtle, I decided to bring him on the cruise ....on ME okie!
its reallie nuthing but eat n sleep eat n sleep, we had a balcony class room that is so comfy that everytime we are bac in the room we cant bear to leave the bed!
plusplus we had this small pathetic balcony but i guess its reallie good enuff, enuff to spend some quiet time n look at how great is thy creation! beautiful sea n stars!
the food is reallie good as i din even expect us to enjoy fine dining without COST! amazing sia..lemme po some pics for u to knw wad i mean....
No photo editing at all!
First ever shot taken on the cruise, presenting de comfy room!

chinese dim sum breakfast for the morning!
sleepie yet greedy! ha!
being forced to pose but still nice!
dis restaurant is reallie cool, had such great food n service man. fine dining for western cusine.checkout the nice red carpet n chairs n the gd thing is cuz its always 2 of us, we always get to sit by the windoW n the sea! LOMANTIC! HA!
nice hors! i nvr knew my legs were so white! like dead fish leh =p
cant u imagine i took this shot fr the bridge! erm like abt 5-7 metres away from the sea! din knw my camera is that good! ha!
can u imagine i was snorkellin thr all these fishie fishies!!! they are so domesticated u knw haiz. i tot fishes will be scared of humans, well it mus be the temptation of the bread that some snorkellers brought along. haiz thats nt nature man. last but nt least, i always like ah ri's tattoo, i tink he grew to look like the tattoo! creepy sia, ha!

10.4.07

没有你的日子,还不是这样的过.......

Who says chio bu cannot have nice 背影!?ha ha ha!

is this wad we known as the CAM-WHORE!!!!muhaaaahaaa.....
can you notice the scary"soul" behind me n chaw yee!?? haaaaa guess who!? =p

wad's with the farnie angle and makin us look so "hooligan"????haa!

3.4.07

好想念这种感觉

歌曲:非你莫属
歌手:tank

<白>:你知道吗?
☆我很喜欢牵着你的手的感觉
☆发生什么样子我好希望再来一次☆

懂得让我微笑的人
再没有谁比你有天份
轻易闯进我的心门
明天的美梦你完成
整个宇宙浩瀚无边的尽头
每颗渺小星球全都绕着你走
爱我非你莫属
我只愿守护由你给我的幸福
爱我非你莫属
也许会笑着哭但那人是你所以不怕苦
☆o0o0o0o0o0o☆
懂得让我流泪的人给的感动
一定是最深在我心中留下伤痕
你同时点亮了星辰
看那麽多相遇偏偏只和你
天造地设般产生奇迹
哦我心的缝隙
我想除了你
任谁也无法填补这空虚

☆o0o0o0o0o0o☆☆o0o0o0o0o0o☆☆o0o0o0o0o0o☆☆o0o0o0o0o0o☆☆o0o0o0o0o0o☆



有没有一起唱着?哈哈哈哈。。。。。
嗨。。。。好想念这种感觉。
最近发现到自己逃避的一些事实,有时候,真得觉得好惨酷。
我只不过想沉浸在自己优美的幻想之中,真有那么难吗。
我不要醒,我就喜欢暧昧。对啊,这样就可以光明正大地逃避。
真想回到过去,那时候的我,一定会,肯定会,为爱而不顾一切,勇敢去爱,去争取。
你是不是也很苦恼。
我好无奈,不能帮到甚么。
但你一定要知道我一定会耐心地听你诉苦。



谢谢你喔!我真的好喜欢它!

是不是很美!