13.10.07
the day(s) we quarrelled
DAY: SATURDAY
i was waitin 4 him 2be online,quite silly hor. but its jus the relentless flirtatous that we throw to each other that makes it so exciting n fun.i wonder when will i get to c him again,haiz. hopefullie when my ugly face recovers man. i cant believed i missed the call n nvr gt bac in the end. i guess nw that our distance is so stretched, i wonder when i will see him again. he said he was near my ex branch when he called me, damn! =( i hope he is doin well and i tink he is, guess he can understand my "torture" more. but he said i cld do it!!! =) somehow, its the same words everyone says to me, but it jus FEELS different when he says so .ha.
WEATHER:SIGNS OF UTI
UTI aka urinal tract infection. look im nt tryin to b gross. but cmon! it is such an appropriate description of thew weather these days in Singapore, dont ya agree? I mean, it was rainy at 10plus, gt slightly sunny in the noon, drizzled abit at 3 and its fine again. look! aint it symptons of UTI!haaaa, nvm, i guess its jus simply irritating how the weather sometimes reallie gets on ur nerves while it forces u to decide on whether or nt to carry a brolly.
anyway, i can list dwn the no of ABSURD things he does when we quarrel:
1)smashed his laptop monitor (ACCIDENT HAPPENED TODAY)
2)smashed his window with his fist, leavin droplets of blood inside n outside the house, sounds like a murder scene sia?
3) use his leg to smash the photoframe i gave him. outcome: broke his heel bone n was on mc for 2 mths. during the 2 mths of "rest", he went online to get to knw some ger(s) thr wholivesnearu and got caught by me.ha. ( intended sacarsm)
4)smashed my room's door, when my parents are overseas. when they were backed n asked me, i had to feign ignorance. he said he will repair it, IT NEVER HAPPENED. ( year to date since it last happened: 2years ++)
5)smashed a mac flurry ice-cream in his car. i was dirtied all over. but i was cool =), i walked out of his car ,calmly and hailed for a cab.
6)smashed porridge all over his living room, he had to ended up cleaning the place in the end. tink he hurt his hand with the chopsticks.
7)broke Crystal Jade's chopstick into 2. i wonder why the manager did nt asked 4 compensation.ha, perhaps he did not wan more chopsticks broken!
8) i tink there were more, but cant reallie rem....
yes i admit, i haf an extreme bad temper. or perhaps i jus simply refuse to face the reality that we shd haf long ago left each other and nt be burdened by emotional reliance on each other. perhaps the commonality btw us is that both of us has this little self righteousness that consumed ourselves with so much irrational emotion that binds us together,too tightly n wrongly.
i was waitin 4 him 2be online,quite silly hor. but its jus the relentless flirtatous that we throw to each other that makes it so exciting n fun.i wonder when will i get to c him again,haiz. hopefullie when my ugly face recovers man. i cant believed i missed the call n nvr gt bac in the end. i guess nw that our distance is so stretched, i wonder when i will see him again. he said he was near my ex branch when he called me, damn! =( i hope he is doin well and i tink he is, guess he can understand my "torture" more. but he said i cld do it!!! =) somehow, its the same words everyone says to me, but it jus FEELS different when he says so .ha.
mina-san, confused? nvm la, ignore me, this is truly my avenue to my freedom.
i am fine! jus wanna pen it down, feels terrific.
pls come online soon! > <
shit, missed my guess show,ciao!
so blur sia, only few pics of recent , my gers send me some of my pics ya! =p
drained.....
DAY: FRIDAY
WEATHER:SUNNY BUT RAINED IN NOON
I feel so drained.
mentally n physically, when I tot life has just turned better, i was wrong.
in seekin fr refuge away fr those threathening hands of politics, i end up walkin straight into their trap.
MORE POLITICS. MORE SUCKING UP.MORE SPECULATION.
haiz. i jus wanted to do my due dilligence.
but I truly beleve the Lord did not put me in a place to torture me. if He put me here, He would bless me!
I will survive.
STATE of mind: FRIED
WEATHER:SUNNY BUT RAINED IN NOON
I feel so drained.
mentally n physically, when I tot life has just turned better, i was wrong.
in seekin fr refuge away fr those threathening hands of politics, i end up walkin straight into their trap.
MORE POLITICS. MORE SUCKING UP.MORE SPECULATION.
haiz. i jus wanted to do my due dilligence.
but I truly beleve the Lord did not put me in a place to torture me. if He put me here, He would bless me!
I will survive.
STATE of mind: FRIED
side track:
this is a pic of my doggie ,bitin the ball of her life to sleep.....sweet.
3.10.07
my reply to ur sms
She msg me today : Hey ger, heard u got promoted to **, congratulations!
my reply:
i dunno wad to reply.
am i suppose to be like a 2 headed snake like u n pretend to be best of frens with u, while i confide in u, u promise to me nvr to say, u did the exact opposite.
this is nt pri sch secret, it affects my career, my reputations.
yes, i chose to forgive u, but i did not chose to be FAKE.
i haf a right to be myself, the real me, the original me, the person that exposed barenakedly to u.
i chose to still be me.
ha.
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today i dressed excitedly, but nuthing happen, no sms, no meeting, no lunch.
dude, probably the last time to meet.
too bad. haiz =(
i was excited.
this is me, overwhelmed by expectations ,drunk with disappointed.
my reply:
i dunno wad to reply.
am i suppose to be like a 2 headed snake like u n pretend to be best of frens with u, while i confide in u, u promise to me nvr to say, u did the exact opposite.
this is nt pri sch secret, it affects my career, my reputations.
yes, i chose to forgive u, but i did not chose to be FAKE.
i haf a right to be myself, the real me, the original me, the person that exposed barenakedly to u.
i chose to still be me.
ha.
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today i dressed excitedly, but nuthing happen, no sms, no meeting, no lunch.
dude, probably the last time to meet.
too bad. haiz =(
i was excited.
this is me, overwhelmed by expectations ,drunk with disappointed.
2.10.07
无题。。。
歌曲名:蔷蔷 by Ella
还记得你喜欢咬着我的手
还记得你喜欢咬着我的手
然后给我你嘴里的球 要我陪你玩丢丢
你喜欢我摸摸你的小耳朵
窝在我的身旁没有烦忧 在梦里遨游
好狗狗 好狗狗
谢谢你陪妈咪这么久
你并没有离开我是搬到天堂生活
蔷蔷你要记得我 你不要走丢
快快找到天使 在天堂给我保佑
蔷蔷不要忘了我
还有亲爱的阿姨叔叔和你的朋友
你永远活在记忆中
还记得你喜欢咬着我的手
然后给我你嘴里的球 要我陪你玩丢丢
你喜欢我摸摸你的小耳朵
窝在我的身旁没有烦忧 在梦里遨游
好狗狗 好狗狗
谢谢你陪妈咪这么久
你并没有离开我是搬到天堂生活
蔷蔷你要记得我你不要走丢
快快找到天使 在天堂给我们保佑
蔷蔷不要忘了我
还有亲爱的阿姨叔叔和你的朋友
你永远活在记忆中
（OS：蔷蔷 谢谢你）
蔷蔷你要记得我 你不要走丢
快快找到天使在天堂给我保佑
蔷蔷不要忘了我
还有亲爱的阿姨叔叔和你的朋友
你永远活在记忆中
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狗狗，我好怕失去你喔。
还好，现在的你肥如胖猪，我还是觉得我有义务要帮你主持公道！
天理何在！不能让那些虐待狗狗的禽兽逍遥法外！！！
受了高等教育，身为会计师，老公是法庭顾问，连养一只小狗多要我来教。
我呸！恶心！
还好，现在的你肥如胖猪，我还是觉得我有义务要帮你主持公道！
天理何在！不能让那些虐待狗狗的禽兽逍遥法外！！！
受了高等教育，身为会计师，老公是法庭顾问，连养一只小狗多要我来教。
我呸！恶心！
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真是搞不懂人性，有好多时候让我几乎对人失去信心。
最近，有好多好多让人心烦的事，包括周围好朋友的烦恼，不知何时就背负起别人的重担。
有好多朋友笑我好傻，但你能忍心看好朋友摧毁生命吗？
有好多次都想老老实实的对你说出真心话，但总是没勇气。
害怕伤害到你，你的自尊心，我们的友谊会因此断线吗？
你能打开心怀，安静,冷静地听我们说吗？
我最讨厌别人在我面前说你的是非，我却束手无策。
我好难过！我好难受！
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是不是开始怀疑我精神失调啊？没啦，women 嘛，就是这样子的咯。
想不想看一下最近丑丑肥肥的我啊？
请看以下....
两个siao char bo..... 和我送的花！好久没买花了，感觉真好。。
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